I want to be valued
For it all

My looks, my brain,
My heart.

I want to be heard,
About it all

My pain, my future,
and all my inner songs.

I want to be stopped
And told right from wrong
When I’m making fast decisions,
And my moms the last one I’ll call.

Ask me
About love
And I’ll tell you
All about heartbreak.

How I’ve found
people who made me
laugh
But how I found
out they never stay.

How someone gave me
memories
And then they took
them away.

How someone gave me
hope,
But then they left me
disappointed in the end,

And how something so beautiful
can start,
But stop just as quickly
as it began.

I’m frustrated not mad
And I’m confused but not sad

Why

Don’t think. Just write.

So I do tonight.

Let the ink bleed,
Let it stain the page,

Nothing feels released
And im still masking my pain

Wondering if what I pour out in words
Will remain my words,
will they remain pure

or will you see them
And tease them
Leave them slurred.

I actually loved you
And our instant connection.

But now I’m unsure,
And I’m just left guessing.

I wish you’d call.
I wish you’d say anything at all.

I wish you’d cave
But you’re not brave

And I have no strength
I know no strength

There isn’t anything left to say about it
I just kind of have to feel through it.
And I don’t want to
But I want to

And it’s so exhausting having this battle in my head
For so long
When you were only here for so long.