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AR Nov 2014
I
I want to be better.
I want to be more.
I want to be pretty.
I want to be sure.

I want to travel.
I want to fly.
I want to love.
I want to try.

I have to succeed.
I have to strive.
I have to live.
I have to thrive.

I will be good looking.
I will be free.
I will be skinny.
I will be me.

I feel very unimportant.
I feel very low.
I feel very insignificant.
All this i can't show.
AR Nov 2014
You say you've never known commitment, yet there's tattoos upon your skin.

You think you've never been fragile, yet your body has scars - small and paper thin.

You don't believe that luck exists, yet say how lucky you are to have  found me.

You can't accept such things as fate - but believe people play a role in your destiny.

Maybe i wasn't the right ink, didn't leave the right mark, the black cat that crossed your way.

Perhaps just coincidence, chance an accident could this be why you didn't stay?
AR Nov 2014
I was conceived in a thunderstorm
and you had drugs in your system from birth.
Who knew two sorrowful beginnings ---

would make me love the sound of rain
and you the smoke that filled your lungs.

*A.R
AR Oct 2014
I wanted to write you - to tell you how i felt,
I wanted to write such delicate words that would maybe make you melt...

But your mind is like the frost - that sits upon my sill,
Your heart an empty snow globe perhaps with our memories i could fill...

Like glaciers - we're constantly moving, under the pressure of our own weight,
Trapped under the frozen river, helplessly awaiting our bittersweet fate...

How cold and calculating you are - turning everything around you into snow,
As soon as i feel springs warmth its gone, back to cold, not aloud to grow...

Ive been under winters spell too long. Its over - everything here is bleak,
Finally i turn to walk out of the darkness, but lips like snowflakes touch my cheek...
AR Sep 2014
Enough.**

It isn't enough for you to speak words but deny me actions
to tell me your lies and sustain from affections
I glare into your eyes, they show nothing at all
spent a year trying so hard -- to just watch it fall.
AR Sep 2014
Her
If you were to kiss me now, would you be thinking of her instead?
If you were to lay next to me tonight, would she be the one occupying your head?

When I wrote you those letters, did you secretly wish they were wrote by her hand?
Sorry I'm not the one you wanted, not the girlfriend that you had planned.

So when you tell me you love me, do you picture her face in your mind?
How she'd look when you tell her, about all those times you have pined -

Pined for her body her mind -  every second of every hour of every day
How you can both make it work even with her boyfriend in the way.

How do you expect me to feel Robert? Knowing what i know
You expect me to carry on with this relationship, to just go with the flow?

You know second best comes easy to me, I've understood it from the start
I gave you my all, but you still you wanted to give her your heart

If she didn't have a lover I know you'd be there right by her side
That day I heard you tell her my heart broke, I could have died

But for now you are with me, promising I'm the only one that you desire
I know from that Thursday morning that you are an exceptionally good liar.

As I hide behind your bedroom door I heard you speak your words to her
You told her how you wanted her, of which of us you would prefer

You lead there completely naked allowing her to see your all
and as she sat there giggling my heart began to fall.

I don't know what I expected from this poem; my feelings I needed to pour out
Robert, you say you love me not her but babe I have a lot of doubt.

*A.R
Just something that happened recently to me with a guy i liked and another girl who is always somehow involved in our relationship. Its happened before, and i just needed somewhere to vent rather than let it eat me alive thinking about it again and again.
AR Aug 2014
and if you knew,
truly knew.

you'd know,
how much i miss you
how much i yearned to be with you, just for one more moment.
one.

but its impossible,

we're now parallel lines.
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