AprilDawn

AprilDawn Apr 2014

Faceless

Out of a swirl of nonsensical
scenes jumbled
through my dreamscape
a man with no face
planted a deep kiss
on my lips
his urgency knocked me
out of my sheets
in the middle of the dark
aware only
of that aching gap
  sitting inside me
filled for a moment
by a shadow man.

In the years after the intense initial deep mourning was over for my husband of nearly 20 years and the realization that I still had love to give and share , came this poem outlining my inner craving for another partner.

#yearning

AprilDawn Apr 2014

Treasure Hunt

Long forgotten stash

of flavor bursts

await my
restless grasp

sugar jewels
cosseted from
bumpy pavement
elusive bag
emerges unscathed
by layers
of fresh found
knowledge.

Score! Unopened Jelly Belly beans at the bottom of my backpack.

#sweettreat

AprilDawn Apr 2014

Awakenings

Wispy blossoms
against the cerulean sky
voracious for sunlight
even rooted in mud
bodacious buds
surrounded by concrete
will not be subdued
they remain
perfectly poised
for ritual splendor.

Gulf coast late winter ,early spring on my college campus almost a decade ago.I was seeing so much around me , I was on my way to the me that is closer to now.

#spiritawakensagain

AprilDawn Apr 2014

Spring Forward,Spring Back

Just another family holiday
with extra time to burn
pastel wooden eggs
on scrawny tree branches
pineapple ham breezes
through the dining room
sit down here my loves
but first
crack the wine
bring in the trays
followed closely
by greedy dog eyes
forks clank
glasses clink
chit-chat bubbles
smiles deepen
as dessert
makes its spectacular entrance
the video camera catches
just another day
with extra time to burn

The last Easter with my late husband.

#nostalgia

AprilDawn Apr 2014

Holiday Monday

nobody out here
but the birds
to see my
rain flattened 'do
the bunnies are getting busy
the squirrels kindly
drop peanuts
for our greedy hound
but frankly
I don’t think
the chipmunks
give a flip

Our great New England Adventure's downside...totally separated from any family on holidays.This was an Easter filled with chocolates , wildlife and mainly interspersed with the awakening landscape .

#lonelyday

AprilDawn Apr 2014

Suddenly

I saw you
taking us that back way
to the mall
waited for us to finish
on a bench outside
while we rifled through
those objects of our desire
on the way back home
the radio’s playing
the same song
I hear right now
suddenly
you are sitting
right here with me .

A song came on that brought back a memory of an ordinary day in my life with my late husband.The early years of mourning circa 2005

#missyou

AprilDawn Apr 2014

Cider

Your love lingers inside me
intangibly
like mulling spices
in an empty jar.

April 2006
This poem has a picture of an empty jar of mulling spices on a window sill.It is the jar that inspired this poem. Sometimes I would take off the lid to just smell it .There , but not there .

#gone #butnotforgotten