I stand right before your eyes yet you still do not see me and I speak my mind and my soul yet you still cannot hear me then as I scream and shout you refuse to even listen. I give in to the option of giving up but as I am starting to put myself down you begin to pull me back up and I don't understand what the concept of this idea really is. I see that you want me to leave but when I leave you silently beg me to stay and now I cannot even think about how our love works but somehow it does. and what's keeping me alive is the fact that no matter how hard the waves crash the shore that is what the seashells live to see and no matter how much the people love the sun it will never compare to how the moon dies every night for her to keep on shining.

*a

some days* I feel the sun shines so bright that my eyes could catch on fire
some days I feel like it's been a constant darkness underneath gray clouds and black skies

sometimes I feel like the ocean waves for me because no one else would say hi
other times I can barely touch the shore

a couple times I feel like I am at the top of the world and nothing can ever stop me
and the rest of my days are filled with hours and hours of feeling like I am no longer alive

**a

"I missed you"* I said
"no you didn't" you replied
"yes I did" I shot back at you
"is that why you haven't talked to me in the past 7 months?"
and then it hit me...
like a bullet to my ******* head

*a