Mist that bears on my mind,
I sift through to gather my thoughts,
Like sand they escape my grip,
Making signs along the corner of my vision,
Mocking me, teasing my failure to grasp them,
I know an idea lies therein,
If only this fog would lift,
Where is the sun that can cleanse my being,
Free me of this mist?

In my home,
I see out the window,
There's a world out there,
Sunshine and alive,
But my bed is here.
Let me sleep,
Leave me alone

i just can't stop thinking about that day
   I remember, you were wearing grey
      without a clue, you sat by my side
         never thought our worlds would collide

there's something about you I just can't explain
   making my brain go insane
      lose myself whenever you're around
         like my heart melted and it fell to the ground

i wonder if you ever feel the same
   whenever they mention my name
      was ignorance just part of your game?
         or should i be the one to blame?

i fell too easily and crashed too hard
   somehow i feel like a ******
      in my thoughts you would dwell
         you had me listening to Adele

you are the light in my darkness
   the smile in my sadness
      though i know this is foolishness
         you existence is still my silent happiness

I am not writing,
I am talking to you,
Whomever cares to hear,
Thank you.

Fear is interesting.
It strengthens some.
Makes some irrational.
Cripples me in my tracks.
I fear, that I am not good enough.
Not for others, for myself.

I want to tell you my secrets,
I know you will keep them with care,
Until the day you give them back.

Because you're not mine to have.

Today the world is bearable,
Good even!
Or maybe,
Today I'm bearable,
Good to the world.