In my dream I see a face not known
a place not home and a life of sorrow
In my dream I see a time gone by
a wonder why and a drunken hollow

In my life Ive seen a man fall down
a drunken row and a screaming horror
In my life Ive seen a life be born
a woman scorned and day of scatter

In my world I want the people free
a pain relief and food for all
In my world I want a roof to cover
a greed gone by and a cure for cancer


All these things are here already ...
all these thoughts are free
all we need to get that way
Is wish a better day

Into the black ...into the night
the door of death appeared ..no given fright
so sudden and so quiet
its ready for your soul
so sleep a little tighter as the devil takes it goal

Into the black... into the night
the door of death awaits you so give in..goes the fight
no pain or sudden anguish
no body to give fight
its time to take your place in hell thus join the chains of harm

For me there is no worry for waiting list is long
I'll be another 70 years before i come along
by then you'll be a master of chains around your neck
a weight upon your shoulders a well you should expect

Hearts beat another day
as life begins another thrown away
Times in wait another state
yet we all do follow the path
till end of days

Shame on life as time stands on time
to have wasted such a gift a wasted shift
mournful looks from the followed
as a sigh within goes unspoken
hear the din

Need the new to awake our eyes
as nature turns another tide
yet never seen within these ways
wall of steel stand blinded looks
a feel ....a lost lost touch  

no matter which the room the wait begins
it all becomes a wasted end
a name to carry in from the past
a voice hidden a record blast
a look from a face broken looked back

here in my soul is a place i know so well
it hides all my fears my lies all my hurts
here in my head is a place that no --one see's no-one knows
seeing is hiding or so its told
knowing is telling no-one till im old

here in my heart is a place that few do see
it holds my wife my son my family
hidden from the all
hidden till i be free

here in my body is a man so fowl
so bad its smell so ...so evil pure is hell
face the mask that hides the real
face the madness face that lives

here is me that no one cares
here is me that fights the fears
hear in me a man that breaks the rules

hear me cry a crying soul

My heart cries a thousand beats into the night of dreaded heat
feeling so that feelings go ..dam the past and blow the blow
see the sky turn into red ..calmness falls do we forget

future lies not with this earth ..yet we hang for all its worth
money had its place in past ..time to move on do behast
head feels from another world ..heart is dying for the cause

The floor is where I'm at yet outside living ain't that bad
this way inside my head just gets me here ...
and dam I'm mad !!!
these other thought's do over
the love and feel
bowl me over

Today I'm on the floor yet standing with me
we are tall
to hold hands and look up
to fight the nasties ...wish us luck
I know I'll bounce right up with you beside me
up and up !!!!!!

Lets climb and touch the skies
the sun is shining reach up high
the floor was where we was
but never ever down we look
the limit up above
lets take the moment
up the live !!!

Drips of my soul fall onto melted glass
My mind's inner feelings
Shaken to hurt
Missed by a minute

The pain that you want
My failure to find
My failure to give

...........................

You gave me away as I sought out your
kind
I wanted your body
I wanted you mind

No doubt in my world that you
Fight me away
My head is so broken
Please love me and stay

My heart is on empty
The blood drained away
Yet hear it still beating
My love please
Let you stay

Will you find my life
To keep me from harm
I need inner peace
I need lover's calm

The day comes round early
The beast is alive
My soul is on fire
My love you
My life

Wake me up in to the new day
See the sun
Blind my soul
Feel It's danger  
Warm to my skin

Let me feel the grass
Through my toes
Wet
Cool
Damp
Smells of summer

Let me walk
Feel the air
Breath the morning
See our life

Hear the birds sing
Feel the earth
Beat to a rhythm
Let me hold your hand

Be my morning
Be my sun
Let me hold your heart

Join me
Never part
Let me in

Rainbows danced upon the water
magical crests of white form from the blow
slithers of sun amongst the rain
showed shadows of light in the bleak dew
The tide was for turning
as wind stormed across the sea

black turned the blue a waters life
darkened from a beautiful cruel
the seas revolt
I remember

I remember .............

feel the wind blow through me as I wander up through time
wandering where my past is and all thats left behind
staring at the moon ,it side we only see
im left to feel the wind blow softly feel the breeze

thoughts on freinds and loved ones that fell away in pasts
wondering on their lifes now ..did they really last
are they in the sun and feeling good on earth or maybe six foot under
pushing up the dirt

wonder if they feel the wind like i feel ...so fresh
do they ever think of me ..has my thoughts been left
will someone remember me for being who i am
will they feel the wind like me ..i hope they really can

sun so shining yet feeling oh so cold
winter lining still has its hold
teeth that do chatter to shiver through my bones
see my air be breathing ..god its ****** cold
wind that be blowing round my little home
summer hurry up i want it hot not cold

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sun so shining yet feeling oh so cold
feel the finger of the ice man grappling ..grabbing hold ..
winters lining still out there not giving up the ghost
wanting ,freezing life.. still freeze me to the bone
teeth that do chatter ....no sound that says hello
they click and do clatter no stopping in this cold
see my breath be breathing...crystals in the air
******* warm from in me chilling me i fear
wind doth blow right round me even in my home
get the fire burning oh my god its cold

Smokey rays of light fell through the trees
As I danced to our song
In faint perfumed winds I could
sense you my love

This was our music
This was our life
To dance with you darling
To be by my side

Our song made me smile
Our song made me laugh
Had been in denial
As love made its grasp

This was our music
This was our life
To dance with you darling
To be by my side

Ten clover tickled toes
Still moist from the dew
As I danced to you with me
I danced and I knew

This was our music
This was our life
To dance with you darling
To be by my side

Sweet memories still hold me
As if your still here
To dance with my lover
To smell you so near

The room seemed lonely
The room seemed bare
I knew you sat beside me
That look
That laugh
That stare

But now the seats gone cold
As my hand touches
Your not there
Yet I know
You are right by me
I miss you
And I fear

My memories start to fade
From a pictures haze
Your mark is burning out
All worn
A started doubt

No one else remembers
Your kindness
And your love
No one else remembers
The good you did
For good

The clouds seem grey today
Is it me I hear you play
Was no mood for laughing loud
Feel the deepest darkest howl

Started like the fun I have
Then the clouds of grey bit back
So I is here to feel the mood
Black and grey all coloured blue

Let's hope the wind does do its job
Blow my mind ...blow the lot
Bring that sunny sunshine smile
Make me happy Gangman style

The day started in my eyes
Blood red views from a sleep still in motion
Bitter in the cold of a dawn still fighting a dusk
ravaged by the cool winds of autumn

A look backed by a glance forward
as light betrayed the scene of dying leafs
Slow and gentle brought by the gusts they glided to this earth
ready to become at one at my feet  

To the trees so rattled in the after life of russets
this was their dawn this was their day
Stripped to be bare by the black of the night    
The smell in the air was ready

Winter's fall was coming and time was moving on
My life seems so much older now
This green has gone all grey
Bones aching for a summer glow
A shell in slow decay

I feel it even more now the dread of winter's day
No magic cream to hide from the cracks of life in hand  
No wand to young the age on time this second passed me by  
My autumn is here
This is my way in life  
Time to change the future a step fall back in time

Dawn has broken as a light seeps in
My day is starting a mind begins
Some sound in my head from a radio blast
That wont go away again.. I hope it don't last

The burden within to pay all the bills
to wake a new day and drudge through the pills  
My day not quite started yet dreaded from quills
My only release in a dream from within
a check from old numbers a life I could win
My only escape is 10 million to one
My dream... my sad lifeline and still its just dawn  

My pillow is calling yet up I must go
My life must roll on now
all gone all the thrills
I turned to an ant and followed the lead
and now I am punished
still hope for my dream

I cannot doubt whats in my head
the way i feel the waking dead
I cannot help the world I see
the fires out the death in me

I want to be a use in life
but whats the point when nature lies
I feel the want to be out there
into the open fresh the air

The time will tell the end of time
in all its all a waste of rhyme
so wake up dead and face death stare
another day like in the ****

Darkness all around me
As I lay about to sleep
Was thinking of the future
Was future without me

Would I wake to see the light
A new day born I hope
Or would my body fade away
Last breath gone up in smoke

I guess you know the answer
As I sit here writing this
But are you here to read
my thoughts
To share my wakened bliss

I'll never know the answer
Unless you speak through god
Or maybe we will meet again
Along well trodden path

My thoughts of black did hide
A deep and darkened fear
Was I about to miss all this
A fate
Nor goodbye cheer

I know
I know the answer
Will come to me
One day

When I have passed
upon this earth
These words just
Fade away

They build as if we want them
Houses
Places
Prisons with no hope

Layers of life before me
Hide the hidden
Hidden from our view

Workers paid to pay the workers
Slaves to the
Slaves

This is our life
We call it
Laughing life in our face

What hope is held against
us
Fed us every day
The green that is our Soylent

Remember this one day

Vanilla fog filled my body
A taste quite sweet yet its bitter pill
burned my mouth
Hurt my body
Stung my eyes

In the dark no mercy for the good
No way out for the end
Too young to die
Too young to fly
See a wronged goodbye

A journey to far
Be his bright shining star
As wings carry him high
For a friend in he lives

Burn so the pain in hearts
close to him
Sad for the sorrow
A missed goodbye grin

Crying not over for a loss
still so raw
Bitter and twisted for the road
Dam the fall
Heaven is a place
Be a knock on his door

His smile just said it all
A look
A laughing call
It melted me inside
My love is pure to never die

His age scare still my soul
As tall as trees in fall
He towers over me
My treasure that he be

A glint that made me warm
The laugh all in his charm
My proudest and my life
Yes my son you are my pride

Yet who do I owe the most
My wifey's love ..a suffering host
She's good and makes me proud
My son ...Our son
Our life

my love my love my sweet sweet love
pure sunshine for my soul
my love my love my sweet sweet love
touch me ....out a control
my love my love my sweet sweet love
I love you everyday
my love my love my sweet sweet love
kiss me ..dont you go away

Eyelids that wont close as
dawn awakes
Oh the dread of another
day

Pain behind my eyes
Yet no end from the pills
that blind my soul

Lifeless in a world so full
of gold
So full of hope
Torture from the past
Now hunting for my very future

Pain behind my eyes
Yet no end from the pills
that blind my soul

Stretching ...waking
Yet sleep evades another days
night

Pain behind my eyes
Yet no end from the pills
that blind my soul

See the world from a place
A place in fear of death
Light into my eyes show
no life begun
Just a past behind

Pain behind my eyes
Still no end from the pills
that blind my soul
Till the dust takes my breath

Remember what they fought for
Remember why they fell
Remember all the killings
The living life in hell

Remember what they did for us
Remember who they were
Remember all the people
That they did fight and fall

A day to show our pride
A day to bow our heads
A day to mourn our family
Lest we forget

I saw the sheets of steel fall across the sky..
the wonders of life dressed in a cloud
darkness portrayed yet new life reaching out
to smell the rain before its due.. to feel its power
earths life has new buds about to bore fruit

drops as big as stones bounced of the soil
markin the earth that was so ready to give
drenched in the liquid of life
so simple yet so strong

such a beauty to see life born to be free
clouds open their souls and relinquish their hold
as earth takes a breath a new dawn born again
I bow to the beauty that eyes let me see

The salty cool spray hung in the air
as the waves gently broke to the shore
White feet ventured onto warm soft sand
Little hands escaped from grasps to greet the sea
This is our ocean
This is our life

Squeals of laughter as icy cold water
Splashed around me from the dancing to waves
Tiny feet daring me to follow
as bucket filled shells gather to be castles  
Love is our ocean
Love in our sea  

Tiny voices half buried in the sand
Building barriers against the tide
Sea was winning  
The sea always wins
Share in our ocean
Share in our sea

Slowly as the sand falls away
The waves regaining the beach  
Gone is the castle ..
Well just for today
as we wave goodbye to the sea
Wave goodbye to the sea