i know you are somewhere out there
somewhere far away
and as i look through the stars that orbit the sky
not a single one can be compared to you
not even the sun  
my oh my
a thousand miles away from me
seems so far
but i know you are right here in my arms
As nightfall caves in
a heavy weight of darkness covers my skin
but only one star remains
and that is you,
a light that shines when darkness gives us the blues
lightening up the dark
giving me a sense of comfort when i don't have you

i woke up again.
this morning filling my glass with anxiety.
my limps swung, hung over me, and held me down.
i felt my heart turn into an anchor,
why am i feeling so much pain when i was okay yesterday?
i was laughing yesterday,
i was smiling yesterday.
those silent moments with both myself and my friends,
wiped my smile away as my sadness sat with me and sunk into me,
caught up with me.
"you're not supposed to be happy."
i don't want to be like this forever.
i'm banging my fists on the walls of my mind and on my walls,
in frustration.
i woke up again,
wishing i didn't.