I'm tracking in mud

Slogging
Waiting for time
To heal the wounds

But fighting aging
To keep myself feeling young
Fertile
Eligible
Young
Vibrant

I'm exhausted
I don't want another one of these
Love doesn't feel good

You ruined it.

It feels better to be alone
Safer
Numb
But still unhappy.

Stronger
fitter
more friends
it's all better

but I gave everything to  you
Isn't there something beautiful in that

As sad
Toxic
Abusive
And broken as it was

I was all yours
Whole

Now my heart is broken up
Bite-size pieces

A low-risk endeavor
Bulletproof
I have a strong pipeline
Many contenders

But there was something about that love
I miss

Why am I running to him?
When he’s running from me

Its as if this determines my likability
Stay present
Focus on you
Rumination and worry
Will only lead to doubt.

Break free
Don't stress
If it's meant to be, it will be

If the glass is half full
You can’t fill it to the top.
It needs to be filled by two.
To create lasting harmony

Heart raw
And wanting more
There is a hand suspended
Hanging in the air

Love me or lose me

you claim to be honorable
you seem all American

But what if America *****
That flag just billowing with pride and honor
Is just waiving for attention

And you're not really that golden retriever
You're just a dog
One without proper training
Disloyal and fraught

No one can blame a dog
They focus on the present
They stick to what they know

They don't fly
communicate
Emote

You want attention from every girl but me
You are so desperately seeking love
From everyone
Everyone
Other than yourself

You claim to focus on awareness and equanimity
But what if you really just need to focus
On to hurting others

Because
You **** at that.