(out of wine)


the message is clear,
you will find no comfort here.

it’s hard to imagine
being deceieved
it’s understandable for others,
but oh, not for me.
( i am better.)
<i am stronger.>

in a time like this time,
when it appears
you have been plunged
into a winter
that will never end,

when winds howl
and shake your foundation,
sleet drives itself down
and everywhere you
look appears bleak,

know the beginning
is around the corner.
the sun will not fail you.
flowers are pushing their way
above the ground,
and new life
is about to emerge.

this is true,
both within the earth,
and within your mind.
seek it
and you will
find it.

what if
i accidentally saved
my 31 drafts
as public

and the world saw
what i wasn't ready
to reveal?

the presidency
is not a school
for the
ignorant,
rich,
and delusional.

it is a test.

and i hate to break it to you, buddy,
but
you've
already
FAILED.

i don't like the word evil.
it is removed,
other.
there is no evil.
there are only men.
wrong thinking,
wrong actions,
and ineffective systems.
we cannot fix evil.
but the shape of society
is up to us.
we are responsible
for the growth or destruction
of our minds.

you really only have you.

yet you are simultaneously
no one and everyone,
both everything and nothing.

and you cannot have anything,
not one single thing.

observe and reflect
absorb and reject.
build and destroy
build and destroy.

heed this thought
and
tread lightly

•

i am not your
***
(gag)

nor am i
your sweetheart
b a b e
|*****|
dear
or
hunny
(do we condescend much?)

•

i'm gonna give it to ya
straight

i am not your anything.
nothing,
not one single thing.

and i sure as ****
ain't your mommy

so take your little boy,
"life's not fair"
game and go home

we all have names.
be simple.
be stylish.
be modern.
lead a movement.

my name is amanda.
use it.

(hung up on you)
and so tired
of this
parade of fools.

we used to get
waffles on Sundays.

and now i hate your guts.

it took me all day to remember
the dream i had last night
but i knew it was of you
because i woke up feeling happy

in my dream
your face wasn't beautiful
but i loved you still.

so proud
of the
forgetting,

that can only
be achieved
if i find myself
*remembering again.

what the mere
t h o u g h t
of you
does to my body,

another man,
in the flesh
**cannot.

it shouldn’t be
so hard to believe
that i made it for me
that i said it for me
or that i did it for me

i just voraciously read the
lyrics to
Are You That Somebody,
dying to find out
if he really was that somebody.

i got t i r e d
of being enslaved
by the idea
that i had to
relentlessly justify
my very right to e x i s t
that i had to prove
again and again and again
my purpose
my worth
my supreme health and vitality
my endless energy
availability
flexibility
my moral ******* i n g superiority

(that’s why)

when the gong tolls
and that **** starts to reverberate,
brace yourself.

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and you are not you and
there is no you and me
and there is no me without you.

i’ve got a case
of the remembers.

-

through green meadows
and orange haze,
hooves thundering
manes in the wind.

we ride at midnight,
under the pull of the tides,
the atmospheric forces,
the nebulous light.

that i was in
an elevator,
the cable broke,
and i began falling.

then i woke.

and i was sad
because i had thought
the cable broke
long ago.

if you want to love a thing
that lives in dreams
and
moves to unheard music,
well here i am, bro.

the multiverse
p e r s i s t s.

you can be
a different character
in a different game.

(and other tales of the
21st century)

swish swash
lay  l
         o
           w
take it slow
because fear is ripe
the fear is hype.

tiggle toggle home for
the hope is h i g h
the power is nigh
and the young are
bold.

“i am going to
get what i want,”
she said,
crying.

you don’t know me
can’t even see me
no matter the noise
i make.

and i’ve recently
come to believe
this is all
for the best.

the time for forward thinking
is always
right
*******
n o w.

what will happen
when the sun comes back?
what will happen then?
what will happen then?

the only reason to m a n a g e
is that your teaching
has
failed.

so sue me!
i like to drive fast
let me
have this one
mf joy
and just move that honda, boy!
crank that shaft, dawg
and just get out
the way, dude!
all you have to do
is get out
the way!