Wherever you are, this is how much I miss you. I can't keep myself busy enough to get you off my mind. I can't convince myself there's really anyone for me, aside from you. Despite how hard I try to see that differently. Maybe you do want other people now.... And though that kills me, maybe it's a good thing. Maybe it'll show you how special we are together. At first, new things are always fun. But nothing beats true love. Which is why nobody could ever take your place. You give me all I want and so much more. You give me love, happiness, friendship. Comfortability. And I miss you so badly that I know there's no way you could miss me half as much. I don't think about anyone, I think about you. You have always been the one for me. If all I end up being to you is a faint memory, please remember that. Please remember that from the day we met, I have never given up on us. Not even when you have given up on me. Remember how I spelled "I love you" on your back because I was too scared to say it so soon. Remember how you told me that night, you loved me. I never ended up canceling our Valentine's Day reservations, so if you want, let's go. Let's forget this past week and be warm again.

I don't think about men anymore, I think about you

When I woke up my necklace was all tangled around my tank top. I miss when you were there to help me fix it. When I went to sleep, after many countless hours were spent tossing and turning, I wrapped my legs around a pillow and pretended it was you. My feet never warmed up like they would have on your back. When I went to make breakfast, I accidentally made 7 eggs instead of 2. Because I know you always want 5.  Walking out the door doesn't feel the same without you there to hug and kiss, while telling me to have a good day. Knowing I'll come home to an empty house, instead of coming home to you, makes the days go by even longer. When I go to the store today, I know I'll stop in the Powerade aisle just for you. I wonder when these habits will stop. You are everywhere, even though I haven't seen you in days. I miss you. Come home.

I hope she's a better lover than I, whoever that may be...

******* **** it's really oveeeer forever:(

I know this won't change anything but I'm still here. My arms are still open and you're still holding my heart. I still have yours, too. And I swear it's not too late to make things right. I swear I'm still craving to come home. That's the beautiful thing about love- forgiveness. Forgiveness for hurting one another, forgiveness for doing the wrong thing that was thought to be the right thing at the time. Love. And I love you. So very much. Can you feel my heart still beating? I know it comes in waves. It comes in the morning as a hurricane, but at night it comes as the waves trying to get further and further up the shore. Longingly. Slowly.

I wish you could remember me as the calm before the storm, but we all know I'm quite the opposite. I hope every time you think of me, you remember all that I am and not all that I am not. By now, you'd think I'd have learned things are never as they seem. And life hardly happens as we wish. And I have been begging the priest to beg god to make you come home, but so far I'm just losing my faith