Tonight,
I asked heaven to forgive me for my lust.
But the heat is taking control over me

I want more

Your heavy breathing
A sweet melody to my ears

Your touch drives me insane
You’re my desire
A sweet fantasy

The memories in the back of my mind send an angelic chill throughout my body

I want more of you

A desire for you mouth to trace every single inch of my skin.
I would be unholy for you.

Tonight
Heaven will hate me

Was it the sunrise

When I stared into his eyes

It was to my surprise

That he was such a prize


My mind is a dark grey cloud

Claustrophobia in a crowd.


I run when it starts with affection

I've never felt a connection

I think I'm just scared of rejection

As if it were an infection

Maybe it's just depression

Or the view of imperfection...

There are times when I don’t feel enough for this world.

There are times when I feel at my lowest and it’s something... I really can’t control, and people will ask what’s wrong.

I simply don’t know and I wish I could control this emptiness I feel within me. The loneliness washes over me and I feel depressed.

Empty.

But the times I feel like I’m on top of the world and you can see my contagious smile and you can feel my great energy ... are my favorite days.

Those are the days I’m so happy to feel alive. And how I wish that feeling could last forever.

I wish I could feel this chemical high for the rest of my life.