that day everyone ignored me
i couldn't see
i pretended i was fine till the night
where i wouldn't put up a fight

so i went down to the ocean
just going through the motion
i took all the pills i could find
it seemed fine in my mind

it was late
and i wanted this to be fate
i was full of hate

so i swam out as far as i could
more then i should
i let go of all my breath
so i could seek my death
i swam down
i was in a well known Florida town

and i smiled as my vision turned black
and slipped through the crack

but i woke up!
i had only managed to sip from death's cup
and i screamed from anger
and i was alive
it was all for nothing, that dive
i didn't want this life anymore
i was curled up on the beach floor
wanting to to slip through life's door

but that day everyone ignored me wouldn't be the last

that night they dragged me
across the parking lot
they just couldn't see
how far i had got
i had made my world go black
yet they still yelled "liar"
they had me under attack
only my friends had screamed "why her?"

i was so close
my mind was less then static
it felt like everything froze
but to them i was still being dramatic

You say you see
a small bustling town
a great place to raise a family
somewhere to settle down
to start anew
You ask me don't I just love this place
Doesn't it ease my heart
You tell me that this place must be better from where I came
Better than a city
where mothers sell and steal anything they can
just so they can feel alive again
for maybe just one more hour
A small Sweet town like this
Must be better than a city
where fathers have no boundaries on what they take
from their children
Because In a city you get beat by the ones you love
I must love living in a safe town like this
where I'm safe from probing hands and peering eyes


But may I tell you this.
This town is no different
The children, they still find every flaw
and they will push you till you fly
It's no different! Little girls,
They still have to hide behind locked doors
So the older brother stops this beating.
In this town, Men will still be shot in the bar parking lot
The lost ones will still be weeping,
as they sink deeper into their addiction

This small busy town is no breath of air
You still get sent to a hospital when you show signs of breaking
that or one day you don't wake up.
Maybe you don't see it the way I can
But this town that adopted me,
It's no different from the city I was born.

You slipped through my fingers
I feel like you’re trying to wash me off you
If you are please let me get you a napkin
And I will leave

you came towards me
and made me feel free
you took me into your strong embrace
and all day i could stay in that place
you looked at me with that smile
and even though it took a while
i opened myself to you
called me your boo
took the blade from my hand
and together we took a stand
so we could both be happy again
i opened myself to the possibility of being hurt again
and so have you
but together we'll be strong no matter what we go through
no more being sad, okay?
we're on top of the world might as well enjoy the view