Looks weren’t enough—
I fell for words that lifted me,
Encouragement wrapped in kindness.
But it was only kindness.

So, I smiled and tucked it away,
While my heart quietly bled.

when you stare
pay attention
when you think
when you act

are you aware
of this dimension
into metaphysical reality

i feel it all
i live within duality
a know it all
and i know i get distracted

and i say lifes not fair
but i want to be proactive
because i really do care

even if its only for a moment
and i feel fear
and i feel empty,
and i shed tears

now is the moment
to think about the years
into the future
where i'll disappear

do you care?
if you really do care,
why don't you act?
and you say you do act,

why don't you try?
i know the lie
i know i live
in a completely separate life

I cry
For fake characters in movies

I dream
Things that could never come true

I lie
To myself

I walk
To places only on the map of my mind

I jump
Into an invisible hole

And I miss
Things and people, when they're alive

People-

They look at you,
They don't see you
.
They laugh at you,
They don't laugh with you.

They check out your clothes,
They never check up on you.

It's a herd of million faces
Saying same words in different voices.

Pills rattle on cue,
Cats purr in soft solace true.
Sofa hugs my frame,
Netflix whispers, sleep reclaims—
Healing slow, the hours accrue.