You adults
Do ridiculous things
Like not telling your children
That you are okay.

1.
i fear you more than i love you

2.
sometimes i wish you were dead so that i wouldn't have to leave you but i wouldn't have to live with you either

3.
i went to dinner with a friend you forbade me to see. when i hugged him, his body was neither as soft nor as warm as yours and i didn't like it very much. there was no ****** tension; only liberation, and deep, deep guilt.

4.
sometimes i lie to you about my phone being out of battery. it's on airplane mode because i need some time to myself and you don't like it when i ask for "alone time". why do you need alone time, you always ask. i don't know how to explain it to you anymore.

5.
i wish i had never met you because i am in a cycle of evil and fear and guilt and pain and sure some days you make me feel loved but mostly you just drive me insane. insane, not in the oh my gosh i'm so in love way but in the i don't know what's real anymore way.

6.
i feel weak because i am not strong enough to leave you.

7.
i feel strong because through it all, i have survived.

The walls are spinning
Or
You
Are spinning
The bed is moving
Your head is moving
Your feet are dancing
Your mind is open to
All possibilities
There are no impossible things
In the realm
Of make believe
When you are a fact
And I
Am a point in history
I will look for you
Where the world never stops
Spinning
And colors
Taste like your name
This place
Where happiness sounds
Like music
Surround sound
In your head
The impossible is possible here
Where you never stop moving

Let's please don't rush
This,
Let us grow.
Take a friendship,
One rather old,
Watch as it
Slowly
Turns to gold.