Always eloping
To a place that needs finding,
Love and attention is what you get
Yet, people go and they will forget.

Charming as you walk
Seeing you, people will talk
hoping for a true affection
Yet, only lust gets their attention.

As you purr for a friend
You go for the trend,
When the time is bent
Green leaves is your tent.

A stray like you,
With heart that is morning dew
Life is charming, to a fake love hue
In the end you are a highway stew.

I am nothing but a waste to you,
Thinking about it makes me feel blue.
I thought that our love is true
But the trial made us due.

Time is all I need
For me to do the deed.
Yet all was rushed
And our love is out of touch.

You made me your tool
To your success, I was a fool.
Your pride made you a ghoul
For it was an act that made you cool.

I gave you everything,
But you said I was nothing.
To your heart I am a disposal
To your soul it states refusal.

You used me well with no closure,
Memories was never your treasure.
Yet your lust was your ideal,
For my body was pleasure you feel.

I loved you, I do
But all the good is untrue.
In the beginning it was all an act
your love is a deception, that's a fact.

The day when love goes bloom
my heart taste defeat and I feel blue
Everyday the air felt like my tomb
It's like my emotions are untrue.

I destroyed this feelings for you
So I could set you free
I don't want to be a hue
That starts a fire and burn a tree.

You gave me a cold shoulder
It makes me freeze in emptiness
In every wind of defeat I shiver
And in every snow I felt loneliness.

I failed to deserve you
I couldn't give what you wanted
You deserve others than I do
All I can say is I'm broken and busted.

Even though my eyes are clear
I'm still blinded by the love
The love so pure as white as dove
Seared with pain I sensed fear.

Yet it doesn't stop me from thinking
About that day that you don't want me
I'm tired of thinking on how to flee
Feels like I'm the one losing

When I carry this pain inside
I just want to say how much I love you
Because in the end all those are true
Even if I'm just a "set aside"

I'm tired, yes I do, so drained
My heart will stop beating
As if I was a flower wilting
This things got me chained

I am blindly in love with you
Even if it the odds are against me
Even the I die like a flee
My emotions will always be true.

Even if it hurts, I smile
My feelings of happiness is a lie
Deep inside my heart I'm bleeding
Holding back the feeling of loathing.

The tears of sadness twisted with joy
Living a life as if I was a toy
Pretending to play house with fantasy
The pain is overdosed like ecstasy.

Longing for the love I wanted
From miles away it tilted
To the road where she likes it
And the place which I am unfit.

Thus, I pretend my emotions
To start no worries and commotions
Even if it burns like hell
I'll die hearing the funeral bell.

To me your my light
Every dark times I fight
With your smile
Troubles gone with a smite.

But despite the courage
It ended up in the garbage
To think it was chance
All I can do is glance.

At a fantasy that never come true
Despite the friendship I feel blue
We aren't meant to be together
For I was just a bother.

I respected you and your happiness
Fly and be free of your loneliness
I won't be a hindrance anymore
you are still the one I adore.

I'm happy for you not by force
But because you're free to soar
Up in the sky of freedom
To the man on the other kingdom.

I wanted to run free
but the chains held me back
and unable to flee
crushed childhood dream
in front of me while I scream.

hoping for the best
while I wait for the worst
the struggles in every step
I am unable to keep.

series of trials I face
but attempts never got a place
keeping in mind that soon I'll perish
with medications memories will be cherished.

Here lies the life I longed for.
All forgotten and gone
buried in my own faith
where there is no path.