When one is defeated within, one puts on a brave face, like a tree stripped of its branches shining brightly in the fading sunlight.

She doesn’t know that she is the best parts
She doesn’t know what perfect means
A heart of gold and a red temper

The sun warms the soul;

Yet the smell of rain lingers;

Ever so closely;

Behind me

I feel numb
I feel tired all the time
I've stopped caring
I've been so scared
I don't even fear death at this point.
If I were to meet death
It would be with open arms.

The worst part is that I don't want to hurt the few people that love me
I keep going
I wake up and just exist.
If only they knew.

A lot of things have changed
A lot has gotten better
But the Pain hurts more when you fall from higher highs.

I listen to the same songs
The same playlists
The same sounds
The same feelings
On repeat over
And over again

We chased a feeling
not a reality

We both wanted someone
So desperately
that we found each other

Even though no part of
us
worked

Our pieces didn’t fit together
so we pressed and jammed them
until they were stuck
and stayed that way
Until
we broke

-red flags