Woke up
To find out you were gone
I still feel your energy and remember everything you said
You made music that so many people could relate to
Numb to all the things that were said about you
People always trying to make you look like a bad person
But you will always reside in my mind and heart
I miss you Jahseh Dwayne Onfroy
Rest In Paradise

In my world
I think of the word “sorry”
Very much as a overused word
And for me it means betrayal
While pain is natural for me
It still doesn’t know that I can be anyone’s chew toy
We all grow up in different homes
And all live different lives
I have many scars from many experiences
Where I just wanted to feel better
So I cut my legs, arms, ribs, and chest
To feel pain somewhere else
Most people think I’m an attention-seeking ***
But I hide most things because that helps keep me away from any sympathy
To have someone feel bad for you is probably the worse part about my life
Although it happens a lot
I don’t acknowledge that they want to help but just can’t

she has no motivation
and feels nothing but
sadness
that made her scared
doctors said she needs
help
for what?
she asked herself
how was she going to take the
news?
she was told she was
depressed
depression was something that
her dad denied she had
she wants drugs or pills
to stop the feeling of emptiness
but they tell her she’s
too young
for the anti-depressants
that everyone gets
when they feel the way she
does
she wants to die
asking why she is still
alive?

What was the point in you breaking me to pieces?
My heart was your favorite toy
That you just threw on the ground all the time
I was obviously nothing to you
And my heart is the only thing you wanted from me
You got what you wanted
So you cheated on me
Breaking my heart into thousands of pieces
In your hand
Seeing you with that brunette barbie around school
Makes my blood boil
You strut her around
Like your brand new toy
My friends hate that i let you **** the blooming flower
From inside me
That beautiful flower died the day i met you
You gave me happiness at first
But left me with cuts and scars
I was ready to jump off the tallest building
To show you how hurt i was
No amount of scars will show you
How you made me feel
The only person that genuinely made me happy
While we were together was myself
I always knew that i didn’t need a boy
To control what i wore, who i talked to, and who i could be with
You lied and said you loved me
It took everything in me to believe you
And trusted that you actually loved me
I shouldn’t even think about you
You now mean nothing to me