If today was the last day of my life,
It matters not how I am meant to die.
And for those I'm leaving behind...
Remember to always be gentle and kind.

We tend to leave a mark,
be it light or dark...
It is there to stay
Yes, it won't go away.

My mind is always racing,
At times I can barely sleep.
And If  my body stopped aching
The price I pay wouldn't seem so steep.

When you decide not to be afraid,
Heavens will come to your aid.

The sun will kiss your delicate skin,
And you'll feel power from within.

The day will come when you will say
"Why did I just sit here and wait?"

And so, you'll be truly free,
Becoming the person you're meant to be.

I open my mouth
But no words come out,
I lift my pen
And no longer know how,

To express myself,
And how I feel.
As if the world itself,
Stopped being real.

Then I hear a song
And tears roll down
Sensations awaken
As I start to drown.

There isn't a soul,
that can save me now.
Or maybe there is...
I just can't see how.

Dear Cris,

I thought I loved you once. And it truly was so... but it wasn't meant to be; so I had to let you go.
We even remained friends thinking these feeling would not grow.
I then met the most beautiful person in this entire world!
You begged me for a second chance, but I said it was too late.  Then came the moment of weakness that sealed our fate. You kissed me and I kissed you. You loved me and I loved you too. Our bodies were one when I wasn't free...
You didn't ever see the cheater that I started to see in me.
I tried to break up with the most amazing man;
But when I thought about losing him, only then I could understand. It hurt me more than when I had to let you go.
How stupid I was... Holding on tightly to the past.
You know, he fought for me. And he fought hard. So I decided to forget what we did and who I was. I'll spend the rest of my life loving this man. I hope you understand.

His truly,
Jess.

Everything I am is an act.
My smile,
My frown,
The beat of my heart.

I experience life through a looking glass.
Like reaching for something foreign... in the dark.