With all my curves
And my short hair
I feel other than beautiful...
Not that you'd ever care.

You look me up and down.
Disappointment on your stare...
And when you turn away,
It's over right then and there.

Unsatisfied, you tell others;
Of the mess that I can be...
And so I start all over
I hide the real me.

I lay beside his sleeping form.
My body, fully awake and wanting.
The craving between my thighs
is so strong its haunting.

My mouth opens but no words come out.
I will him to wake and touch me.
In the end its not his fault.
I'm the one that must set me free.

You offered me your hand,
In fear I stepped away...
Who could ever truly want
An empty piece of clay?

And that's all I was...
Till your love shaped me.
Into a birdlike form,
Finally I was set free.

Except I wasn't.
So much held me down.
Not happy with so little
My smile turned to frown.

Everyday you reminded me
What made me who I am
And eventually I smiled again
As I started to understand:

Even if I shattered into a thousand pieces
Having you  around will always be enough.
If love were to be considered a crime,
Is it one we are both guilty of.

They say love is patient and love is kind
They say it is deaf, and also blind.
They say gestures are more valuable than words
I can't ever calculate how much you're worth.

My hands are tainted with blood.
A mental guilt no one else is aware of.

"If I ever knock on your door, would you open it for me?
After all I've done, would we ever be back here?

Where we started? A place we should never have left?

Would you welcome me into your life?
Could I be so blessed?

You do understand don't you? The reason I have to go?
There is another in my life... Someone special I'm responsible for.

But I do love you. Remember that as I walk away...  Specially if i don't turn back, as you beg me to stay."