life goes by
your life goes by
we will move on
you moved on
we will forget each other
you forgot about me
gonna lose each other
you left me
we are stranger now
but you're not stranger in my thoughts
in my heart
in my soul
you will still be here
in my memories
in my photo gallery
in my contacts
in my notes
in my drafts
i still call your name
call it unconsciously
i still read our massages
read it unconsciously
i miss you
but i will heal
one day
some day
i will

why is it okay when it's you
why is it okay
always nagging
always mean
always judging
but when i'm even about to talk
i'm the problem
is it because i make it easy?
is it because i always let it slide?
always "you didn't mean it"
always covering for your mistakes
always "i'm imagining"
always trying to make myself the problem so you can continue with your thoughts
those stupid thoughts
and even then
i hoped that you would hate me
or be bored of me
because i know
and i've always known
that i can't hate you
i can't block you
i can't leave you
please hate me
please leave me
and you did
left

Feeling can come and go right?

So why am i in the same place having the same feelings?

How can i move on?

I fell for nothing and i know that

But how can i move on from “nothing” ?

Wishing is all I can ask for

But having is something I can’t have

I feel lost

My feelings are just like the ocean
moving slowly or rushing fast

I can’t make them settle or slow down

How can I do that?

I want my feelings to be like the tide at the beach… dry and empty

I wish i can remove those feelings
I don’t want them not anymore
I don’t want to feel or even want you to feel my feelings
I’m better with my own
Alone in my little world
All alone