I feel like Peter Pan,
like i'm on a drug trip
If your my Wendy,
i'll do it again
Let's go to Neverland
Fly into the stars
forget everything else
Captain Hook can't even bring me down now
I want to run with the lost boys,
running wild and free
what i would give
to go to Neverland
with just you and me

a person can never be perfect
as much as we try we will fail
failure over and over
over and over
over
until a human is not left

I'm feeling entangled, snared by the life.
I can't see to breathe, even though i have the breath to,
I want to become somebody else, even though it's a new year,
I can't help but seem so down, so low.
I don't want to be here, but i need to stay here for them.
them isn't a person who i can feel,
it's the person inside who doesn't want to give up,
i don't have much this year,
just a lot of untangled fear

i've noticed how sad i've become
i wouldn't tell my family
nor my friends
since everything is happening to them
It's my sister's birthday today,
why aren't i happy for her?
when i'm suppose to be so plentiful with joy
I used to be shining with happiness
now i'm just dull with nothingness

Yesterday I saw you
With your new man
I wondered how
You let him hold your hand

You said you loved only my love
And would never betray it
But then you left me down here
And continued going above

Your love was false
A hoax for golden bars
But what is gold worth
If it is wasted and rusted
By your unclean soul

It’s your fault
Not mine
You put my life at a halt
Your sweet words mesmerizing me
You shouldn’t be there with him,
You belong to me

Do you here me
Love of mine
You can’t escape
My little game
You started it
Not me

“It was only one night”
One night of what?
Pain, suffering and hate combined?
“Just a bit more”
A bit more of what?
My blood, tears, and sweat together?

Life is as long as it is short

feeling obsessive over myself,
i don't have time for anyone else,
can't i feel anything else,
what can i do to help out,
i put others before myself,
way too much, and i hurt myself
i'm becoming unstable,
even though i do everything else

They're just playing with me,
heart and everything
pulling on strings
they tell me
"gimme more gimme more"
as they brush against my arms
and hold my calves down
while i'm stating
"no more, baby, can't hold on anymore"
they tell me they want me,
but to another when
i can't be there
am i really your love
or just a doll to play with
and pull around
just for fun?

Every day is pointless
Unless someone wants me there

Rivers of colors fading on a screen
Actors pretending to be things they’ll never see
Maps made of secrets inside their minds
Worlds made of people who have no sight
History that is mostly biased that we all believe  
Why are we pretending to be things we are not
If you say that you don’t pretend sometimes
B U L L S H I T
Sweetie

Tu restes avec moi quand je suis malade
avec tes cheveux drapés comme des rideaux
les lèvres peintes en rouge comme des roses sur la table
tu t'es couchée avec moi, les bras enroulés autour de moi
ton souffle sur mon épaule
et ton cœur dans mes paumes sèches
tu m'as donné chaque partie de toi
ton amour, ton corps, ton âme, ta vie...
"tout ce que tu veux dans le monde, je te le donnerai"
tu m'as parlé en silence
mais quand je me réveille,
les fleurs rouges vibrantes sont fanées
tes marques ont disparu
les draps sont neufs et propres
et je pleure

Rhetorically I love her
Logically I hate her

I didn’t wanna tell
I didn’t want to break it
But my love went down the well
And I can’t ever recover it

Life is a road, rocky and unstable
Roadsides are filled with people unmoving
Sacrifices lead to 2 sided paths
One for angelic peace
Other for devilish beauty
Unless we think
Not to go forward
Unless we think
To go backwards

Rumor has it that you betrayed me
Rumor has it that you used me
Rumor has it that you’re a liar
Rumor has it that your dad left
Rumor has it that it was your fault
Rumor has it——
They’re lies
Rumors are rumors
And nothing else
Don’t let others
Infect you
With vile poison
In words and actions
Believe me

Writing is like drawing blood
For a result you must sacrifice
Something dear and something close
Even if it hurt someone
Your quill is a needle
And your ink is red
May the book be the best
For all you’ve seen

sat alone waiting for a sign
holding on to you
simply following along
don't leave me alone too
and you said it,
"Leave me alone, just leave you pest"
and so i stood there
crying in silence
bleeding out feelings
standing down
falling on the floor
giving you all i needed
left here dead
bleed out my heart

Thus I lie down in the ocean
Waves of cool roaring almightly
Caressing me is the sea

She cracked my edges
And left me broken
Wore my strength down
And finally destroyed me

I wear bright colors to feel noticed
I wear clothes to cover up things people don't like
I wear things that I want to wear.
Sheer, ripped and beautiful

i think she's as sweet as boba,
a calming breeze
she is just there for me,
shes's as pretty as a poppy
bright as day,
like a star thats far away,
i can't hold her
since she went away
when she used to hold me
i felt so light and happy
but she left
and left me alone
the reason why
i won't love again

give me a smile, give me a grin,
give me a happy meaning, even in the end
as i can't help but die inside
even if you stare at me,
i won't care
as i feel fine,
i feel great,
can't keep me down
i'm gonna raise the stakes,
so just follow me,
i'm gonna shine, brighter than the stars
if i can stand, then i can fall,
but if i fall i'm gonna shine bright still
as you can't hit me
i'm gonna shine like a star

Oof im getting a snake any name suggestions?

I feel so stable
but i know it won't last
I keep my arms out
for balance alone
I'm trying to grab on
to keep myself still
I'm on this rope
above everyone else
and if i fall
ill be alone

What happened to my mind,
when did i fall down below,
how did i not realize,
that you are leaving me
to stay here alone

they give us some titles to represent us
stereotypes to build ourselves into
yet you have given me more to see
less to eat, less to explain, less to say
control me, use me, do whatever
i will never build into a stereotype forever

O' little one, tales of old and new,
shall tell you of our history, whether fake or true,
there's always two sides to a stories,
perspectives unknown,
would you be our savior,
with love we haven't known,
for when people have self doubt,
we will never grow,

O' growing faithful one, your stories appearing
you fought others for glory,
but is it who you're meant to be,
follow the path of your mind,
and do not stray,
for you shall be the one to save the day,

O' youngster of my brethren, you have turned wicked
and your heart is now cold, where did you wrong,
have you no pride, for what you've created
have you no sorrow for those killed,
whist your knives be stained with red,
and your clothing wet from those tears,
that they shed, for you have no mercy
and we have no hope

O' old soldier, do you see what you made,
a land of horror and pain,
children and men are scare all the same,
and you are the cause of it all

do you feel pain
or do you feel happiness
do you feel pride
or sorrow
do you feel nothing
or everything
I'm sorry you're helpless
You fool of mine

My ginger house is breakin
No feeling left for the oven
Might as well burn it all away
Honey fixes everything
But this isn’t any sweet thing
Flowers always wilt away
Vanilla loving, nothing like the past
Hungry for a new taste

Tea is a wonderful thing
It warms you warm
And calms you down
The aroma is electric
And the feelings are great
But one thing about tea
That we all hate
Is that tea can burn

I know the end is near
The bite of death, so sweetly sour
As the cool shower
Of tears and sweat,
Hold me close
Marionette
I know the end is near

Oh the fear of blood
hemophobia in its trueness
Your bite is hard and cruel,
My eyes can’t take it
I close them and tell myself
“I’m fine!”
But am I really in the inside?

Oh your teeth so sharp and deadly
Your warm breath so close but far
Oh truth, why did you go afar?
Your teeth grab my neck,
So thin and boney,
It’s the end
I’llremember your scent of honey

Never been a fan of this holiday,
always lookin at the lies and troubles
I'm suppose to be happy this time of year
so why do i feel this empty?
where is all my cheer?
The cold hits like flash,
last leaf falling from the tree
It's that time of year

As nail picks skin away
and my thoughts consume me
i remember a faint, but haunted memory

One of childhood, bitter yet calm
with a tv lit up, commercials all drawn
and people advertising this and that
but my attention was only on the cat

The cat jumped high, and jumped low
The cat did flips, and rolled so slow
The cat grinned, and flipped an ear
said "Come here child, and listen here"

The cat told me tales, of people and beings
so real and honest
it felt like it wasn't dreaming

but mom came in and sat down again
and the cat went back to his actions again.

A fool is one who cries
When they are rejected
The fool is the one who lies
When they are affected

A pit of fear and conquest
A place where demons thrive
A place only for the best
To arrive alive

One will overcome fear
If one doesn’t hold something near
The gates of hell awakening
Pray for us
As we are all weaklings