One little thing, or a thousand, it's hard to know
can't organize it, put it in a box
like a trillion stars bursting in all directions but somehow making sense, intricate designs upon designs upon designs
chaotic and complex, but beautiful in our complexity
they try to make it all work, to put together the puzzle
order, organization, stability, rules
Fear. Fear brings everything into perspective for some
and nothing makes sense to others. Spurring to action or inaction. Not all action is visible though. Invisible action the more powerful of the two by far. The pen, for instance, ever mightier than the sword. Takes much more action to use effectively and powerfully.
Sometimes things don't make sense to some, but perfect sense to others. Boxes are made for the dead, not for the things that run around in your head.

Sparkling on thin needles
sun glistens through
looks like Christmas lights

hearing the steady sound
outside my window
and I think of you

I wonder if I can handle it
all of this rain, and more
can I stand the wet places

the gloomy clouds
oppressive gray all around
will it get to me or is it perfect

I don't know what to think
I don't know what I want
I don't know what I'm in for

decisions always more and more
never seeming the right one
just trying to do the best

how do you find your place
when this world is not your home
how do you know where to wait

we are all just waiting here
the dedicated are doomed
the half-hearted are hated

how do you commit your heart
when you know it won't last
the gloom gone, sun is coming

nothing lasts, nothing makes sense
commit commit just go 100%
something is meaningful in the chaos

wind whipping rain all flurries about
nature is chaos but all is in order
rain or shine, don't decide. just live.

Blessing abound in my poetry found
there's beautiful flowers all over the ground
the spring time is here and there goes the fear
the sun has come out to dry all our tears
God is so great and not full of hate
you can turn to Him now, it's never too late
spring is for birth and filling with mirth
as baby animals roam around all the earth
so go out and breath in or go for a swim
now is the time to let go of your sin
joy will find you in the vast ocean blue
and you can be free of what hold you back too
so let go of the sting of rejection that clings
go out and have courage and try that new thing
you can be free if you just want to be
limitless is how He created you and me

Roses are dead
Violets are stew
If you're in love
then you're an idiot too
'cause boys just like drama
and you'll never be right
unless you're like their mamma
and never will fight
they want you to be good
while they play around
but they wanna check under the hood
before they settle down
so where is the balance
and what do you do
how can you stand a chance
or know what is true
the only way you're ever the one
is if you stay true to you
till they've had all their fun

Running so fast and chasing so hard
trying to see if we can play the right card
he's just so perfect, everything I want
at night it's my very heart that he haunts

dazzling her, buying her presents and gifts
trying to break down her walls and mend rifts
if she will just talk to me give me some time
I know that I can make her mine all mine

why can't they just love us why can't they just see
who I am inside and just love you and me
if they would just give us the time of their day
then we know that we could show them the way

the way to true love and what all that includes
they could just feel the love we exude
we would make them feel safe with our warm embrace
and wipe away all their fears leaving no trace

what we are ignoring is we're working for love
when really love is a gift from above
and what we don't see is they work for it too
but they don't have to work for it from you

we never want what is freely given
because we don't trust that we're really forgiven
we feel guilt and shame and want to make amends
so we punish ourselves and follow these trends

so when you are loving and open in heart
be prepared to be torn up and broken apart
this world is unkind when you love from the core
don't you know that's what they killed Jesus for

but if you never give up and you truly believe
then God always has something up his sleeve
and He can turn fear and despair into hope
He will GIVE you love so you don't have to mope

the moral of this little story you see
you don't have to work for love, just let it be
go be yourself and do something you love
God will open His arms and pour gifts from above

I can't read any more poetry
was not meant to rhyme
with this statement of weird facts
are different to the people viewing them
like in an accident when you're in a car
wash your face and your hair
brained ideas are all running
horses right over the edge
of this razor is duller than ever
ever after and then some
people just never know you
think you know everything
in the world comes back around
and around and around she goes
to the store to buy some more
that I think about why I love somebody
let the cat out again and I can't find him
and I were meant to be
better at your job and you might get somewhere
over the rainbow where monkeys fly
to California to see your family
jewels and gold in an old treasure chest
x-ray showed a heart murmur
into my ear that you love me

They don't understand
just what I see in you
no, you are just a man
but what I see is true
the person that you act
is not the one that's you
I've always know this fact
but I hid that from you too
I saw you from the first
the dark the light the shame
I knew that I was cursed
even though I saw your game
looking at your heart
was like looking in a mirror
'cause from the very start
I knew we're slaves to the same fear
I love you with my soul
it's the other half of yours
but this love can take a toll
I think we feel it in our cores
that's why I had to leave
and I know you don't know why
but I had something up my sleeve
and that's why I didn't cry
I'll be yours one day
though you don't want me now
I'll win this game we play
and I'm gonna show you how
my love for you is pure
and I want the best for you
I know I've got the cure
and I know you'll get a clue
I see right inside of you
just waiting to burst out
no one ever sees what I do
I want to scream and shout
to tell you what I know
what maybe you can't even see
'cause you refuse to show
though you've opened up to me
you know I will never quit
no matter how long or how far
I don't know if you can handle it
but I wish on every shooting star
people think I'm nuts
but I don't really care
most couples stuck in ruts
but we've got miracles to share
so I'll work with all my heart
until that day that you decide
to offer me the part
of your ever faithful bride

One day of heartbreak deepest dark
breath upon my neck, cold and stark
tears fell down like icy rain
and I cried out to you, not in vain
sobs so harsh they scraped my throat
walls up so high like a fiery moat
into my life no one could break
I was afraid they'd only take
take my friendship and use me
take my heart and abuse me
prison of my own making
human contact forsaking
I looked up and prayed to You
and my prayers, they were not few
dried up like a desert from all the tears
and I couldn't fight off all my fears
but You picked me up right off the dock
You are my God my shelter my rock
On the worst day I ever faced
I felt your love as You embraced
I felt the joy and it was mine
through me I could feel You shine
I can't explain just what it was
It's never happened but because
I went through these darkest times
You gave me the urge to write these rhymes
To help some broken hearted soul
and tell them that You are the goal
If you want to feel fearless and free
then I hope that you will listen to me
He can shine His POWER through you
and then you'll be the best of YOU

Pitter patter little snow
how I love the way you go
so unique in my delight
floating down and taking flight
I haven't seen your little dance
since I've been in the State of no pants
all I saw was shorts and flops
and little skirts and tiny tops
there's just no snow in some places
except what goes up some faces
that is not the snow for me
but laying silent beneath the tree
this blanket cold and crystalline
boards jumping like a trampoline
hollers hoots and happy guys
crisp and perfect clear blue skies
pine tree smells and rushing air
snowboarding without a care
breath of freshest oxygen
this day it was a perfect 10

Booming big and bold and loud
like a charging, stomping crowd
rolling bouncing off the hills
rain goes down the window sills

curled up cozy on the chair
sitting in our underwear
fire crackling popping lights
little sparks go up in flight

I snuggle in and feel your heart
your mouth is running something smart
you always have the words to say
challenging me every single day

my mind has not a chance to think
until you stop to take a drink
the wine is smooth but not like you
so charming girls don't have a clue

you spun them tails, told them lies
you preyed on the weak and dismissed their cries
but you are now a different man
no one sees it, but I can

I always knew what was inside
it's why I wanted to be your bride
I saw a heart that's sensitive
that wanted just to somehow live

to escape all of the suffering
the mood swings were so demanding
bipolar ups and downs are tough
but I knew that you had the stuff

the stuff that love is made of true
I saw the good inside of you
I saw the love and longing deep
the secrets that you couldn't keep

so now I sit here in your lap
I zoned out so you gave me a tap
I couldn't help but think of you
distracted by my love so true

and Jesus answered all my prayers
and I don't care about people's stares
they just don't understand this
but I don't care just what they miss

Because you're mine and I am yours
and I love that we are roasting s'mores
this cabin in the woods our dream
I knew we'd make an awesome team.

So this one time I sat down to eat my salad
and she plopped into a chair to share her life's ballad
Of drunken crazies and dumb little nights
and of all sorts of berserk and ridiculous plights

Dancing on a table, just a little unstable
whoop! there's that white girl wasted label
Get up it's all right and dance into the night
got that guy's number in spite of her plight

she jumped in a cab didn't know where to go
had a suit case and just went with the flow
landing on crutches again and again
you have to play hard if you want to win

she met this musician, Aerosmith something
he was sitting on a beach wearing pirate bling
she walked up and said, "man I like what you're wearing."
had no clue about all of the people just staring

she sauntered through life on a breeze and a cloud
and only got scared when things were really loud
never a care it just falls into place
I wish I could remember that girl's pretty face

so this one time she told me things got really weird
but don't worry about it, "my name was cleared."
but she sang while in jail to cops in blue caps
and when she came out of her cell there were claps

now she turned with a grin and twinkle in her eye
and gave me advice as she bid me goodbye
"a ship in a harbor is boring as hell
crazy makes history, so go make it well"

Kindness goes a long long way
it helps to brighten someone's day
when your ear gets talked off by a friend
it means that they need help to mend
when it's always about them and never you
and sometimes they don't have a clue
listen and smile when you are there
and then go off and be somewhere
just let it go and shake it out
don't dwell on what it was all about
limit time with ******* souls
and try to focus on your goals
but try not to write them off for good
if you can help them, then you should
just take the time in between
to renew yourself out in the green
God said help the least of these
if you can't stand them, get on your knees
and someday when their ****'s together
and they've battled all that stormy weather
maybe it was your patience and care
when they were on a path going nowhere
you never know the effect you make
when you give instead of take

twisting and turning all muddled about
my brain.. there's no ending I can't find the route
there's no path to follow that leads to the next
like trying to make sense of a foreigner's text
things are all tangled and covered in sauce
its difficult to figure out who is the boss
hard to look good when it's all on your face
like trying to demand you belong in your place
respect is something that is earned and not taken
a good leader can always admit he's mistaken
fear, regret, resentment, anger and hate
its hard to respect when that's all on your plate
respect goes both ways and you get what you give
it all starts with you if you want peace to live
if both of you hold on to all of the bad
then you will both end up very sad
fill your heart with forgiveness and love
pray and ask for some help from above
then you may end up cooking spaghetti together
a step towards something that can stand any weather

Flower petals snowing down
covering the grassy ground
standing underneath the trees
the humming sound of happy bees
darting through the sunny skies
a thousand newborn butterflies
grassy windswept green cascades
like the tail fins of a million mermaids
fluffy shedding, startled deer
glance up as a dog draws near
the old tire swing in desolation
sparking the imagination
red-tail hawk takes sudden wing
God can be seen in everything

Coming down in torrents wild
screaming raging like a child
stormy winds they whip outside
matching storms within I cried
a broken heart when does it end
all that I want is for it to mend
nothing prepared me for this pain
so I sit here and listen to the rain
it's running down my window case
just like it's streaming down my face
heart is wrenched completely shattered
all the pieces wind blown scattered
whipped on breezes left behind
I watch them like I do not mind
the numbness starts to settle in
but then it all begins again
it's like a storm that never stops
I just miss the mountain tops
to peak above the gloom I feel
and see the hope and know it's real
I know that this will pass someday
so I will always stop and pray
for all who ask they will receive
a broken heart mends if you believe.

So much stuff it's killing me
it's crushing me the stuff I see
there's stuff and stuff it's all around
I cannot even see the ground
my emails just pile up high
my virtual pile reaches the sky
real stuff fake stuff, so much junk
it's probably why I'm in a funk
my brain is spinning out of whack
so much stuff I can't keep track
should I just delete it all?
and throw away what's piled tall?
but then what if I need that stuff
and then I may not have enough
I'll try to find that thing I read
'cause I can't keep track in my head
but maybe I'd remember things
If all this stuff would just make wings
and fly right out my window there
and then I'm left without a care
what if that had changed my life
and left me here without this strife?
am I the one that stressed me so?
I guess that I'll never know...

Oh teddy bear, just look at that stare
you sit on my bed with not a care
never complain when I squeeze to tight
don't steal the covers at all in the night
you're covered in lots of my salty tears
from heartbreak and pain throughout the years
you're not as soft as you were at the start
but I'm glad my mom put you in her shopping cart
thanks for your service but now that I'm 30
you're still a good bear but you're just a bit *****

There is war going on that we cannot see
where angels of brilliance are flying above
a raging battle is fought to save you and me
in brilliant armor they clash, bright wings like a dove
Each time you say something kind or you give
every prayer that you offer when you'd rather fight
lends ammo to Heaven so that more may live
tips the scales in favor on darkest of night
you think you don't matter that life just goes on
that all things are determined so do what you want
if there's even a chance that you might be wrong
that when it is the weak and the helpless you taunt
or maybe you think if you're just good or polite
and you'll go to Heaven and that will be all
but He said to make Him you're heart's delight
or you could be left here when He comes to call
Or maybe you think that Heaven is clouds
and all you do there is sit with a harp
when death comes for you in burial shrouds
you think Hell is more suited for the smart and sharp
if you are striving and battling all your life long
to have mansions and money and all that you can
then you are going about it all wrong
God said just believe and that's His gift to man
He promised mansions, and treasures, and pleasures unknown
so what is it here that we want more than that?
all we have to do is plant good and reap what is sown
but we get drunk and diseased and eat till we're fat
so if you have warriors blood and a desire to win
and be tough and awesome, loved and not beat
then why fight with the losing, lending ammo with sin
switch sides to the winning, who's victory's concrete
every choice that you make is helping one side
there's no Switzerland in this battle that's going
so you're making a stand, none along for the ride
pay attention to life and the things that God's showing

I'm so angry I cut off an ear!
I'm so sad in denial and fear
I'm so happy and cocky and free
everyone should all be looking at me
walking on water, my faith is so strong
but it never seems to last me too long
ups and downs and ins and outs
smiles and laughter, then tears and pouts
why am I such an emotional mess
do you know who I am? I'll give you one guess.
I'm Peter, the disciple that followed the Lord
Who loved Jesus, right down to my core
hot tempered and passionate, all over the place
but Jesus was patient, love shown from His face
He took an emotional, and hot-blooded dude
spouting off at a slight, and who may have been rude
He saw the potential, strong man I could be
and never once did He ever give up on me
He built his whole church on this foundation
showing us anybody can enjoy His salvation
If your ups are real high and your downs are so low
and you can't seem to be happy wherever you go
if you're out of control and don't know what to do
Just ask Jesus, and He can help your moods too

Shadowed meaning twisting turning
heart of anger full of yearning
can't decipher what he's feeling
I think his heart needs some healing
harder, colder, darker growing
wondering, hoping, never knowing
his life needs light and brightening
but to him that's always frightening
hope and love send him to raging
fear and anger welcome caging

I want you so much I can't breathe
she runs and hides from his desire
chasing after her love true
who chases after yet another
She is running after love
he skips and dances from her arms
falling on the lips of a beauty
too exotic and wild to be tamed
running along with all the males
as they chase this maiden fair
she skips and laughs at their attention
seriousness coming over her as she sites him
the one she loves just up ahead, who runs alone
she follows at his heals awhile, watching waiting
time to pounce, and as she does, another girl
from out of nowhere and off he goes
round and round they chase and chase
never catching what they want
trying to fill that empty place
till finally, two, run side by side
they may still look away sometimes
at long last, they realize that the other is still there
it's time to stay, the hunt is done the race is...won?
yes for some.

Pit of snakes, where does one start the other end
smiling and nodding it's all pretend
not what they think when they see my vacant stare
not stupid, my mind is just everywhere
door slams on one tiny thought
had it right in my hand, but now it's not
staring at the judgmental snowy page
it's like a zoo animal locked in a cage
waiting to wander about and set free
unfortunately that poor thing is waiting on me
flutters around like pretty butterflies
taunting you with lots of enticing lies
zeroed back in like a tiger that's tracking
ignoring the concentration you're lacking
oh look! Something shiny its right under there!
oh really? what is it? It went under where?
out of my seat like a running gazelle
man I hate homework. It must be from hell.
but I have to try harder, I really do care
and don't forget I made you say underwear. :-P

I am free just like a bird
no filter on these lips
I must be heard
a few cuss word slips
no big deal
I do what I want
I'm keepin it real

I'm free to drink
and party all night
free to think
and I'm free to fight
I'll show you what
if you disrespect me
knife to the gut

Nobody rules me
I am my own
I'm totally free
'cause I'm full grown
I sleep with my choice
I drink when I want
always use my voice

addicted to the opinions of others
you come first, don't count on brothers
living in a cage of expectations
in this life there are no vacations
it's dog eat dog and you must win
don't realize your trapped by all that sin?
free to drink? or a slave to the bottle?
free to do drugs and drive at full throttle?
to impress some girl, who wants your money
you're not free, you're a slave to her, honey
a slave to what everyone wants you to give
but you are not free, you don't know how to live
to be free is to know exactly who you are
when you know that, then you can go far
you think you're exercising your right to decide
but what you are doing has trapped you inside
you're a scared little person that nobody knows
and neither do you, and you're afraid that it shows
so let go of the women, the money and *****
because you actually do get to choose
so choose to be free from the judgment of others
and join us, God's children, your sisters and brothers.

He opens His mouth and what you hear
is words that calm your heart of fear
His face his gentle, bright blue eyes
He never tells you pretty lies
He listens when you have something to say
Never gets tired of hearing 'bout your day
He comforts you when you are super sad
and calms you down when you're raging mad
When you're all alone and start to cry
He comes around 'cause He's your guy
When you just can't win and all is lost
Just remember He died on the cross
sometimes a victory's disguised as defeat
But then He rose up again, isn't that neat?
So, if miracles are what you're waiting for
then just be patient and see what's in store
For all those who pray and ask and believe
It's been promised to them, that they will receive
He's not just concerned with our afterlife
He loves and He helps us with all of our strife
So cast all your cares on His big broad back
Especially when your life is all out of whack
Because that is the time when you need Him most
The Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost

I am your God, no God's before me
This was a command for you, don't you see?
For if you love Me more than any other
then you won't be needy or clingy or smother

You shall not make an idol to pray to
a thing you can look at that can't even hear you
it will make you believe that I am not real
make you frustrated and numb, so you cannot feel

You shall not take My name in vain
this I told you for your own gain
for when you throw my name about
and use it when you scream and shout
you forget that I am the God of all
and you make Me seem so very small
How can you trust me to handle a prayer
if you don't even really believe I am there?

Remember to keep the Sabbath day
now listen to what I have to say
you will burn out, hopelessness will set in
if you ignore this and turn to sin
work will become the most crucial thing
causing anxiety and sleepless suffering
you will be bored, short tempered and stressed
that's why I gifted you with this day of rest

Honor the parents that I gave to you
don't hate them no matter what they may do
they are human, they'll make a mistake
but listen to them, for your own sake
if you give them your love and respect
then here is what you can hope to expect
they will respect you right back, you will see
then you will all live more peacefully

You shall not ****** another with thought
this shouldn't be something that needs to be taught

You shall not sleep with another's husband or wife
this will cause all of you nothing but strife
pain of betrayal and despairing rejection
can spread faster than any other infection
it destroys our ability to perceive love
and that is our best gift, straight from above

You shall not take what doesn't belong to you
there will be consequences, this is true
you could end up in jail locked in a cage
filled with sadness, despair, and all sorts of rage
the person you stole from will feel violated
and you will be guilty, and loathed, and hated

You shall not be a false witness in court
to condemn someone to a life that is short
if you lie under oath you are hurting another
and God said you should love him like a brother

You shall not covet your neighbor's things
not their big house, fancy cars, or glittering rings
then you will think you never have enough
and you will be so caught up in just stuff

There are two commandments that often are said
thinking the 10 are long gone and dead
the first is love Me above no other
the second is love yourself and all others
These are a statement to encompass all
so listen to these commands, big and small
Love me above others is all the first four
the last 6 help you to love others forevermore

Love is the thing that makes all this make sense
so you can have a happy life from now, hence
so make sure you love in all that you do
and you will have a happy life too.

I traveled down a winding road not sure where to go
I let the wind just push me around landing here or there
Sometimes a path would seem alight with a certain glow
but when I followed them they didn't lead me anywhere

a dead end here a dead end there, sometimes its so frustrating
so I got back on the winding road and I went on my way
and then it straightened out a bit which was so exciting
there was a road alongside mine and it felt like a new day

the fog had finally lifted and the dead ends were no more
all those winding paths that crossed, nowhere to be seen
I felt a clarity and light, I could feel it to my core
the foggy gray path I'd traveled now full of life and green

this path that followed next to mine, was straight and clear
it veered when mine veered, and it curved with mine
I started to worry that it would leave and gave in to my fear
that is when I saw it, bright yellow and foreboding sign

"Rocks Ahead!" It said, trying to warn me of my danger
and then I saw the path was no longer clear before me
a giant boulder stood ahead making our two paths a stranger
but as roads continue on, that is not the end of the story

a tunnel here and tons of rocks, the sign did not justify
the difficult path these roads did take before they met again
mine went through a tunnel, dark and heavy but I can testify
I don't know how dark the other road got but it was not the end

these roads still run at parallels and see each other once in a while
in beautiful green meadows and dangerous cliffs that are not tame
and traveling along it has made me cry, and scream and smile
but I know the roads will someday merge and they will be the same