Orange sunset over snow drift parking lot
Empty

I can centre myself within her
Motherly warmth
Our shared home anchors us
Maybe

Our city of trees
I guess I breathe easy
Looking out winter

Not yet so bad
Maybe love in me
Excited, we speak the same language
When can I see you again?
Cautious refrain

I hate myself
I've lead a life that a lot of people don't understand
feeling the need compartmentalize my life to the point I don't even know who I am
stopped wanting ***
even now find it crass and crude
just another way for people to use me
afterwards feel see thru and ugly and gross
wilted sunflower to be culled from yr bed
even if mutual with ample loquacious lovers
I curl up in ball
don't let them look at me
in ugly failure skin clown mask
the **** of all yr jokes
'he's great but he's quiet'
talk on

everyone just seems so cruel
I weak like veal
tender for the taking
fry me up
straight from womb to pan
cowards make the best cuts
of wet meat to ****