How a narcissist makes you fall in love.

First he will treat you like a Queen.
Listening to everything you say.
Doing all those things together which   you wish to do.
Making you special and feel important.

Then he start treating you like a Princess.
You don't get to decide now.
But he still keeps you happy.

So you got enough affection and attention now?

Now you are his Hostage.
Neither a Queen nor princess.
Still he will show some human care.
Either you listen to him or you get abused by him.

You cannot leave because you are tired with the ropes of love and attachment  now.

He will  feed you like some food and water.
But you are suffocating and it's difficult to breathe in his presence.

You might run away one day,
‎and then he will find you again and remind you that you were his queen once.

So it's time for you to decide whether you want to stick with this person because of his past or you want to leave him because of his present.

Or maybe you are ready to give him another chance.

You, the kind hearted bird,  will surely give him another chance.

One tear drop from the eye.
She was suddenly terrified.
Staring at the darkness around
Something pinched hard in the heart
Sudden pain and sadness swept all inside
Feeling of emptiness and loneliness was not left behind.

Shivering and suffocating, not able to calm her breathing.
Looking for reasons and solutions
Why this is happening?
With so many questions in the head  and no answers to any of them,
She couldn't stop the tears from falling.
Couldn't stop the mind from over thinking.

Hugging herself tight, lying on the floor at mid night
Just waiting for the time when this will be gone
Trying to take some deep breaths,  
Hearing her own heart beat so fast
Scared and alone,  she picked up her phone
Thinking of anyone who can help.  
Scrolled through the entire contacts with shivering hands,

She reached the end.

People say 'learn from your mistake '
But what If every choice you make turn out to be another mistake ?
Why is it always have to another lesson ?
Why do we even have to learn to live?
Why can't the mistake be just another mistake?
What do you actually mean when you say 'learn to live' ?
Why can't you say 'just live'.

one day I will lost
not from the world
but within myself.

dreams died
empty life
no way to go on.

tried to love myself
but cant even look in the mirror
with a smile.

restlessness all day
insomnia at night
lost interest in all I had.

who are my friends?
where is my love?
my mom and dad is all I have.

tired of findings answers
to what have I become
because there are no reasons left.

all I know is
I lost that crazy fun happy girl
left with a sad scared lonely one.

if something
don't change all this
I will be lost.

knock on the door.
I knew it was the bird
To tell me another tale
Of her lost love
Because I am the only ear
She has got.

She need to be at peace for godsake
Leave me alone for a day
With out her lonely talks
She should no longer be here.

Tired of hearing those tales
I took the gun
Opened the door
And shot 3 bullets
right into her.

She couldn't stay away for long
So comes every night to see you
Sleeping in peace and she smiles
That her love is having nice dreams.
Now she is not selfish
She doesn't gets angry,
Things changed her.  
But what changed her, changed you too.

Every night when she sits on the window,
She wants to be inside, sleep by your side
And tell you how much she loves you.
Only if u could open the window and let her inside.

Today u came with a smile
Something different was surely in ur mind
The bird couldn't think what it could be
As u were waking slowly to her cage
A smile meant something good to her.
She was then the happiest creature alive
U came to her, opened the cage.
Asked the bird to come out,
Fly and never come back alive.

The bird got confused.
With the smile and those words.
But the smile was gone.
Ur eyes were waiting her to fly
She wanted to ask why?
But she knew the answer herself.
You had left her long ago.

The bird had tears in her eyes
Begging for you to smile
One day you did smiled
But it seemed full of lies.

The bird realized
It was her fault
For you to be so cold
So she won't say a word
Because she still have hopes.

Now she just eat,
whatever you feed
With hope in her eyes
That some day it will all be fine

Days and days gone
And you still feed her grains
With that fake smile.

The bird wondered
"Why you even feed her? "
May be you still have something for her
Or may b you just want her alive.

The bird was happy when she was your pet.
But u couldn't keep it happy for long
So she fled.
She found people to laugh with
but not by being herself.

Everyday she felt more empty
Couldn't find what was missing now.

One day she realized what she missed the most,
She left all behind and fled back to you
But may be it was too late .

Now she is your pet again
And you only feed her grains
without a smile on your face