There are questions in her eyes she won't say.
There are tears in her eyes she won't let out.
There are thoughts she can't share.
There are secrets she has to keep.
There are smiles that finds it way to her face, she let it.
There are emotions she tell her heart to feel, there are times she had fallen but that doesn't keep her from seeking redemption.

Perfect, her smiles are
At first sight he fell in love.

From a distance he watched her,
Dreaming of a home she could be a part of.

There were things I would have done before we parted.
Maybe it might had kept us together.

YOU KIDNAPPED MY
        EMOTIONS

I woke up with the same smell
It isn't strange anymore, familiar than I thought, last night wasn't any different, ever since I was ten how can I tell you am hurting?

Getting consoled in sweaty shirts with your stench all over my face, what's the point of your embrace when at dawn you won't even recall our conversation.

Lord, i lay down my heart
Hoping you'd calm this trouble soul.
I patiently wait for your breath to still this raging storm within my heart.

The distress is as fire in my lungs, can't hold in the pain.
I need you lord, let me be close to you
Pull me closer as you save this rebel heart.

Deep blue sky, deep blue sea
Soar higher free bird
Across the ocean where your wings take you.
See the world, experience the taste of freedom.

I too need love
Wondering why am all alone
Maybe my heart had gone to far
So I just keep trying to be strong.

Love came quick
Didn't have time to think through
Became famous before I woke up
But couldn't keep the fame.

Am just a love letter to you
Am not the real thing.

My feelings for you are true but our worlds aren't the same.

In as much as i hate to admit  this
But its time I let u go.

Flashlight blinking
Might be a text or someone's calling
Could be a reminder, a date set for something special, maybe.

A girl's winking,
Her call got him thinking
Might be of deceit or truth
Could cause him sinking, so he stood rethinking.

Keep rising even thou you'd fallen
Below the ground where you face had felt the dust of earth.
You could change, becoming beautiful, letting go of the past.
Your dreams are possible bringing every single one of it into reality, walk where the sun lead until it dawn on you keeping your dreams at your reach and you become unstoppable.

I'm one who love has saved, the thought of her is no longer a dream.
Her name and scent is no longer a tale I tell myself.
I taste it, love's no longer what I once read or heard from songs of love.
I feel it
I see it
Love has become my better half.

Have been given a choice

To choose between

Myself and I.

I choose being Me instead.

Before I sleep,
I keep my memories in a jar,
I am scared to lay with it
Or maybe its the fear of recalling even
In my dreams.

Gaze under the moon light

All hidden stars behind the cloud

I don't know what the night bring

But am sure going to be alright.

I smile when I think of you because
the sound of your voice gets to me.

My smiles are as the stars of heaven
Because your words gets to me.

My friend was 28
When she was told she got only six months to walk the earth
She's was diagnosed with whatever I had no intention of recalling
Yet she goes about telling others how Jesus saved her life.
All songs she sang was of heaven and how glorious its land are as she waited for her soul to ascend.
My friend just turned 85
She still sings about the glory land
I watched her through the years and she still testify how Jesus saved her life.

Somehow memories once held and felt never leave you
It then becomes a secret as you try picking the broken pieces  or whatever is left.
Everyday you pick a part, gathering as much as you can.
Some might not realize how broken you are others might not even get to believe you and so they don't see.
Somehow the memories keep coming back, the exact same time, when the world's asleep and you are all alone with these feelings that taunt you.
Nobody sees you, even if they do some won't still believe you and others are yet to.
Wide open your eyes are, scared of what you might see when you close your eyes, each piece becoming clearer but difficult to pick and still nobody sees and even if they do, they won't still believe you.

Colors of promises
A step closer to fulfilling those dreams
Time will bring us closer then the fear does
Not as the first while we were scared of falling.
Colors of smoke
A step closer to forever, walking down the aisle, brave enough to take the vows
Never again having to stand alone.
Colors of roses and Lilies
Hanging partly as chandeliers
Beneath which we made a promise of always staying together
We begin this journey of ours, wherever we find ourselves, whatever life throws at us, as the promise we once took, always and forever.

I have been here before
I once felt the pain of a broken heart
I came to understand that the feeling doesn't just go away
Everything at that point stops moving,
You get to see nothing, you only feel the suffocation like the ground beneath your feet burns, fingers numb because your heart clearly remembers it all.

Sunshine as blues on horizon,
As flaws becomes the irony of the one who still love.
Neither define by words of times or grades the society needs but suppose it turns out that way.
Suppose I wasn't born human,
I will be termed a Phoenix and every word of mine that can't be written in lines or margins would give rise as fire to another but right now, am human.
One just gazing at the stars.

Am sorry for ever hurting you.
Am sorry for always making you be at edge.
Am sorry if you had ever for once felt I didn't love you.
Am sorry for making you sad.

I gave you everything or maybe I thought I did.
Could I had given you everything except what you truly wanted?
Everyday, I wake up with the whisper of your name on my lips
Everyday is a constant reminder of the promises of love we made to each other but now, all am left with is just a memory.

Every breathe of hers is as her last
She isn't scared to close her eyes
Even as she watches her pure crystal hair falls away and her admiring tanned skin that illuminates beneath the morning sun turns cold, she still believe that just as other days she could scale through the next.
Every day is a battle most especially the ones that comes from her mind, is like trying to ignore the clamor of crowds, it difficult to when they had laid tents just below your window.
But nothing scares her even the looks of doubt in their eyes, the constant needles that find it way through her veins, its as a reminder of a battle not yet over and soon peace will find her maybe not here but the life after.

It what we see
It what we feel,
It what keep our heart in place.
We had tasted it,
We came to love it, letting the passion drive us, the joy of stained ink on paper.
We search through scraps of old journals, we stare at non existing walls and the world call us crazy,
We listen to the night call our names, eyes closed that's when we see better just to create something beautiful.

I hear your foot steps and without looking I know its you.
Your steps, sound as wheels stuck in mud, I could tell its you even in the dark.
You sway your hips as gentle wind on trees with smiles clear as morning dew.
I could listen to you talk all day, the sweetness of your voice is as a newly baked pie, it scent can't be ignored.
I could forever hear you laugh, its sound fills the room as faded songs of love and when you are gone the trail of your scent still lingers, one could easily tell because its that of lilies.

Am a mile away from you, let me know am always welcomed
Give me reasons to trust you, let me know that the attention you show me isn't the same you give others
Let me know we both feel the same way, that your heart beats as fast as mine
Tell me all I need to know before I fall.

When you look at me, what do you see?
As others, do you see fear or strength?
When you hear me sing, what to do you feel?
Does the sound of my voice cause you pain, a kind that makes you cry or does it remind you of the existence of happiness.
When you look at me, who do you see?
One  trying to find herself or one who doesn't want to be found.
When you watch me sit alone having an unknown expression on my face, what emotion build inside of you?
Could it be told in words or its as unknown as mine?
I just want to know, what is it you think when you look at me.

In times like this,
When the world is scared and people grieve
When the streets are empty and fear roams instead.
And people stay in their homes and listen
Some rested, others hoped.
In this same world, people prayed others slept
Some fasted, others ate and grew fat.
Someone out there mediated cos it seemed as the end of time
Some took this time to reflect, others got hunted by the darkness.
In this same time, someone searched for light and a heart was healed
Others thought differently, fearful,  meaningless, toxic ways with ideas of its simplicity.
People united, one heart, mind, goal until the danger ends and the world is healed.