Sinking back in my hole...
Living a life of regret
Those thoughts rushing back...
Losing my identity
Who am I?
Why am I still here?
What keeps me breathing?
When will I break?
Where do I go?
All these thoughts ring in my head
But why?
I didn't do anything
So why do I still suffer?
Then it all comes back to me
Well of course
This...
This is my beautiful suicide

The shadows
They follow me
Trapped in my own coffin
Of what others call my mind
I do see the light of day
Yet I choose to ignore it
I see the people around me
But I still stay where I am
I get moments of hope
When I feel like I'm strong once again
But then you disappear
And my pillars of strength come tumbling down
I feel so weak
And so worthless
I wonder if I'm good enough
I wonder if you'll say
I wonder if fear will win again
I wonder if you think of me the same
I wonder if you can handle my life
I wonder if you will truly love me
Or will you just leave like the others?

My world isn't falling apart
so much as it's **crumbling

Today I sit
I think of you
and how your
delicate skin
was never seen.

Then one night
as we lay
under the stars
you asked
"Can I trust you?"

I said "yes"
you rolled up your sleeves
showed me your arms
full of
scars