they've mistreated
my beliefs
stomped on my respect
treated me like a trash

then they've wondered
how i forget
they exist

my mind is again drowning
of the thoughts
i fear would happen
in reality;
things i just see
in my head
when dragged by anxiety-

my soul is choking
gasping for air i couldn't grasp
reaching for a lift i couldn't hold
looking for love i couldn't own

i fear of losing you
when these thoughts
are for real
i fear of losing you
because my love
you brought my heart
a great deal

You're an orchid
I'm a thorn
you are loved
I am burned;
with all insults,
mischief, conspiracy
and infidelity

for i chose the path
that denies my existence
to only-
make path of your presence

now, you're still loved
and i-
a part your history,
untold

What’s on your mind?
You always asked
and I kept ignoring
that kind of inquiry is boring

what’s on your mind?
You should’ve never asked
the night may be long
but still ain’t enough
and you’ll even call me wrong

what’s on your mind?
but of course I should respond

What’s on my mind?
are words I couldn’t define
they always seemed to be fine
but if I won’t let them out
they made me dizzy
like I drank ***** mixed with wine
they’re hot like fire
but when I write them down
with my tongue-
I got frozen, I somehow turn blind.

What’s on my mind?
I think you got it differently
for it isn't what
but who I have with my crazy thoughts
and it's you, always have been;
in my mind always floats

die
         to
               afraid
                            never
                        ­               was
                                                  I
         ­                               was
                             never
                allowed
            to
      live
     a
life

if love is forever
I wish it'll be with you
wherever, whenever
through good and bad days
through joy and sadness
through laughter and tears
through and through everything
I will only wish love for forever
only with you

women come in different colors;
and just like rainbows,
they're most beautiful
when they shine

My eyes still wonders, how yours are made. How they sparkles and twinkles at night. How they show courage, even though your body's trembling with fear. How they show sincerity, even though you've been cheated and mistreated for many times over-countless that even the hairs on your head are not enough to tell. How they speak with love, even though you've been rejected and neglected. How they show kindness, even though you're misjudged and faked. My eyes, and heart, and mind, and soul- still wonders; HOW YOURS ARE MADE.

you are bitter-sweet
the coffee treat
i will never forget

you are the lever
that lifts my soul, to new level
and i always wonder
how you set fever
into summer

you are bitter-sweet
and to wander
your world,
takes no deep thoughts to ponder

i write my feelings
for i lack the courage to speak
coz darling my emotion
is vast as an ocean
and if telling you them
with my voice
trembles at the sight of you,
you'll drown

and i'll be left with the thought
of drowning with you
or left, rubbing my voice
against the wind

You're alone
Do not think,
You are someone else's world-
You are not
Stop thinking
You are loved

I'm touching
the skies
tonight
with the picture
of your smiles'
delight

        your smiles
             are the stars
                     of my night sky

I have not thought
of songs that sings
with my name
until, I hear your voice
it had me ecstatic;

and to ever wonder
how and why
I fell in love with you
deeply-

They say,
every person
is a different world
but why is it
you're like
the sun

Your warmth
is what
I needed.