If I could numb the world
Or numb myself to it
Then maybe I could let something go
Look at the white of my knuckles
Admit defeat
And be free
But it’s too strong
And I’ve never known anything else
Other than holding on
Too long

You could never appease me
Never make up for what you’ve done
And I will only know peace
When I am bathed in flame
As the smoke fills my lungs
I will know that I am a survivor
And all that will remain of you
Will be ash
And I still won’t be satisfied
Because fire is too good for you

If I could hold your hand forever
I know I would be safe
But you aren’t made to guard me
You let me make my own mistakes
But when I do
And when you find me broken on the floor
You take my hand again
And I am safe because I’m yours

This smile I hold for you,
For safe keeping,
I think I’d like to keep it.

We are patchwork people
The little girl who smiled
And the girl who cried
Neither of us whole
Because we have been torn apart
How long can you hold my heart
Before it falls apart as well
And you’d never know
that I was anything other than broken
Because my suffering has overcome me
And what love I had was lost
So very long ago
And I would say I love you now
But I don’t think we can
Because we are patchwork people
And if I give you this piece of me
There won’t be enough left
To hold me together
And when the parts begin to fray
You won’t recognise me
Perhaps you don’t know me even now
Because we are patchwork people
And we can never be whole again

You broke your own rules
And what for?
So they could break you again?
So you could stare into the mirror
And ask why?
You know why.
This is your fault now
So do it all again,
One more time.
Maybe this time will be different?
You’ve told that lie before
And you’re such a bad liar.

Everyone is watching now,
Watching me fall apart.
Staring with intrigue
As my mask cracks and fades.
Look at me now,
The truth revealed.
I hope you’re all happy to see me.