Theanm Ankh Is Also Human

Theanm Ankh Is Also Human Oct 2022

Every morning I wake up blind.
Bask in my reflection, I feel like hot **** I feel like fresh hell
I feel fine.
I want to strip my skin clean;
Tear off tissue like toilet paper spill blood red like wine
I want to stop this beating heart every
Every night but ohh
I just haven't got the ******* time.
Instead, I smother myself in your covers,
And you watch as I try and pick ants,
One by one
by one by one
Out my spine
And there are none to be found nothing to find.
I could've sworn I put them there myself, but who knows?
Every morning
I wake up blind.

#relapse

Sep 2022

Marya0324

Noose

"Thanks!", I tell the rope that promises to hold me, tight,
Unbeknownst, being strangled, that I won't survive the night.

#abuse #abusive #relationship

Theanm Ankh Is Also Human May 2022

Consumed, /Consummated/, By Irony

You aren't as good of a person as you think
And I am not as bad of a person
as you have made me think

#morality

Theanm Ankh Is Also Human May 2022

I Am Sick, Sunken In Sadness, And Small In Expression

God sinned when he gave me nerve endings at 9 years old
I've got a mind full of mold and lips that
when kissed
turn into solid gold
Don't listen to a word I say:
I'm okay I am alright I'm fine
Instead act on my ever-extending un-exiting untold
Do not pretend to know me
Just know
You're mine

Procrastinating final exam preparations

#restriction

Theanm Ankh Is Also Human Apr 2022

Anti-Anti-Allegory

I'm so upset with the world,
I've decided there's nothing right left to sea.
The Eiffel Tower can go **** itself,
The Leaning Tower of Pizza too.

I have torn myself to pieces on the fence that is bureaucracy
I get out the car, on the ledge, and plunge into the blue;
Look out God! I'm coming back to you!

Tell me you still think I'm funny,
Because you don't know it's breaking me in three.

Roughly inspired by Andrew Jackson Jihad's "Normalization Blues"

Theanm Ankh Is Also Human Mar 2022

In A Loop On A Roll

Tonight I'm in for a loop
Today I'm on a roll
She smacks my head against the counter and says:
"Don't hurt yourself"
Mouth full of knives,
She embeds her glittering lips all over my body
I scream and I thrash and I bleed all over the bathroom tile
And I smile
Today I'm in for a loop
Tonight I'm on a roll

Theanm Ankh Is Also Human Mar 2022

Maybe If I Did More **** I'd Have More Fun

High on acid with steam-filled lungs;
I call my poor mother and tell her I'm fine,
I fetch my good brother and tell him to bring me the gun.

#tercet