The day is long and hot
In the evening the soldior hides in shadows
They are long
But thier time is short
Quickly fading sun baring down on him
he toils away till the shadows grow long and stays to see the moon
That is when the battered and beaten man finds himself baring his teeth against the world
And becomes what he was meant to be
A hunter of the night

Away from home
I may never see that town again
But in my mind memories race
Of a time when i thought i was me
Always pauseing on you
For years my world revolved around you
Now its off center
And i  cant even remeber
Why i fell into your orbit

In the dance of life
The shadows i hide

The light was your reign
A beat never skipped

From afar i did not watched
From near i was not found
Never did i leave my comforting ground

Clothed in the night
Running around
Only light was the distant glow of town
Not for you
Not for them
Going round and round was not for me
I prefered the shadows were i could sin
With a group of brothers none of us kin

I did not venture to the floor
You crept into the shadows
Curious what was behind that door

Still bathed in light
You reached into the night
And grasped a hold of my heart

Your eyes glimmered
Brighter than your dress
I tried but failed to hide and regress

Captivating you were
My soul wretched
But my hand reached

It was rough and scarred
The princess out the castle
Looking for a thrill
Took hold and sealed the deal

You learned of danger
You learned of the darkness

You asked me to dance
It was imperfect
Frustrated you grew
Yet beautiful to me

At first i was a thrill
But i stumbled
And your voice grew shrill

You left you ran
Back to your stage
You found new partners

I still ran the night
But when the music was gone
And ***** was thin
you still waltzed in my mind
Still Elegant
But now a touch of sin

I have read
the poem of your life
as I have lived
my own.

You are broken-hearted.
You are lonely.
You are defeated.
You are in despair.

So be it.

Embrace your pain.
Hold it close.
Surrender to it.

If you evade
your suffering,
you lose your chance
for joy.

Joy lives on
the other side
of suffering.

Wake up each day
and soldier on.

Show up for life.

That's all there is,
but it's a lot.

~mce

Fear soon follows hope
I can see my self doing it
But that does not matter
Will i do it is the question
When it come time to jump
Into the unknown
Trusting my life to a piece of cloth and rope
Will i leep
When the red light goes green
Will i step forward
Or will i halt
In the face of fear
Will it open
Will i fall to doom
A thousand thoughts
In 3 seconds
Was i born a warrior?
Or was i born a man?

I take another long drag
And let it out slow
Watching the smoke curl away
Over the water
No where to go
And heading nowhere
So i came to the one place i knew
It aint much just an small lake
And an old dock
With alot of old memories
From when life was bright
But its 3 am and like the world, life is dark
I take another long drag
Look in my phone for the thousandth time
Looking for the wrong girl to fill my arms
I pass everyone because they arent her
I just cant stand to hold a stranger tonight
So i take another long drag
Life feels empty so i fill my lungs with smoke
And my arms with flesh
This year has just been one long drag
Slowly killing me deep inside