We want to scream we want to cry and we hate to admit it but sometimes we ask to die just to stop the constant hurt the constant cry to stop the voices in our head to refuse the need to get out of bed to stop cutting and biting and scratching at my skin like it’s paper thin the knife the pen but we’re an artist we can’t quit each cut like a step closer to finishing our work and when I’m done the lines soon fade then only white lines remain and what if I slip and cut too deep? I cut and cut so blood will cover up everything I made and then I’ll restart on a clean slate a new masterpiece and then I’ll trace the lines and the past and it hits like a train and then I’ll start to get to work on my masterpiece until I’m no more this is the question everyone has asked

Mirror mirror in the night  was she always meant to take that flight roses light and leaving night deaths sweet touching bite I’ll ask why no answer found because there she’ll lay beneath the ground

Here In the light now I wait by the ocean looking out at everything I see undetermined who to be the light falls and the dark comes I see what comes not fun not boring but sometimes that’s all we need no more hurt no pain but we find the need to find comfort in others and if you look at it sometimes we cry wolf and when we play fake and love we just don’t play with.

There was a time when I once loved
A time where all people could do no evil
A time where the guy and girl I loved were my everything
There was a time when I would move mountains to satisfy people.

After I left certain people it became clear that they used me. But it's okay they made me who I am today. One thing I can say is that I once loved.

The one that I love is one I refer to as a God
The one that I love is a million times strong
The one that I love has given my life a new meaning
The one that I love has taught me not to be afraid of love
Someone I cherish and devote my all to without him knowing
I bow and show my loyalty but remain fighting for his love and attention
I have yet learned to express my feeling but with him by my side it is possible
Keeping me upright on the path that is most perfect
He is the light at the end of every tunnel my new beginning
When life comes crashing and starts to tempt me I remember that
If I am patient enough he might just develop feelings for me
I write about him because I'm afraid to tell him
I love him and always will
My good mornings and good nights
In, and Outs are the best part about him
In these past months he is my all
Loving everything about him and longing for him are all I can for now
Until then I dedicate this to him my love
Who I have chosen to name
The One I love

The one I once loved did not care enough to listen to the pain in my voice
The one I once loved was so caught up in his own reality and bull that he stopped caring
The one I once loved tore my love in two
The one who I shared my life with tore me down to half rebuild me
The person who gave me many great months now took our vibe and strained it
The one I once loved killed my emotions and soul along with everything that came with it
The one I once loved taught me how not to vibe with people so closely
The one that I once loved striped me of my love and left me in the freezing cold
The one I once loved has now become a stranger once again feeling like I will again fail to express my love to him, The one I once loved treated me like one of the bro's not giving a **** if I woke up the next day or ever for that matter
This is to a that I named person named
The one that I once Loved.

Even Though I'm moving don't worry I'll be back.
I am not moving because I want to,
I'm moving because its what's best for  my future.
Even though I'm leaving
I am not giving up on you or us.
When I leave I am taking all our
adventures and all that we have been through
as memories.
When I leave I am leaving you with everything that
matters to me for you to look after and keep until I return.
When I leave I am leaving the place that I grew up in
I'm not leaving you.
When I leave it's going to be hard at first
It'll take a while to comprehend what happened.
Even though you will hurt as I will
you will find a way to get over it like I will as always
I will always keep in touch and remember you.
Even though I'm leaving I will find a way back to you.
Even though I have to say good bye it won't be forever.
Let's hug and say bon voyage because my Trip
isn't one way it's a round trip I will return.
Even though I am leaving I will embrace what we have
even if it's thousands of miles apart.
Even though I am leaving, We will kiss and say good bye.

We talked like men.
We played like kids.
We looked like we were
in love.
That wasn't the case.
You wanted her
I wanted you.
I saw you flirting with her
today.
She is my best friend, I watched as you two fell for each other.
All I could do was front like I was okay.
On the inside I was screaming and running like Hell.
All I could do was ask myself how could
I let this happen .
But all I could do was remember not everything
works out for everyone.
He wanted her instead of ME!!
And she was okay with my Hurt.

Here I am feeling trapped.
                      Here I am no where to turn.
                    In the day I am crazy and free.
         When comes night all my tears spill like the sea.
                    I take walks to ease thy mind.
                When I return I scream it all out.
                   Probably unheard for the best.
      Because what good is it once I reveal all my fears.
           Will you stay? Will you go? I don't know.
  I continue to scream and reach but continue to drown unsaved.
                      Looking up through the surface.
                                        Here I am.

Here I am Flying free
can't explain what I see
through the night and starry light
would fly high but not tonight
for I must end this flight and
make things right
Here I am on this
Starry,Starry,Starry Night