Oh look
Here we are
Part two of ten.
You responded,
You’re going to New York City.
You love broadway.
Your life is evolved around books.
You love fantasy.
Your different
I like that
Your not crude
Your not rude
Your not bratty
Your not spoiled
Your sweet.
You’re not like others
You see through my mask
You ask me if I’m okay
You know I stay up at night.
Reading every book you tell me you;
I find a way to read them
Online, hard covers etc
I just hope your safe
I want to protect you
But there’s someone new.
I still want you
But life’s complicated
Please understand
Please stay
Hold my hand till the very end I beg you
Good night, have fun in New York. Be safe <3

I want to cry
I want to hold your hand in mine
I want the comfort you provide
I want to be able to cry
I want to cry on your shoulder
I want you
I want you here
I want you next to me
It’s unhealthy I know
But please
Please come back
I need you
Your my only hope
I changed for you
Not in a bad way
But in a good way
I’m better
I want to cry
I want to tell you how much I’ve bottled up for you
Please come back
I need you.
(●´ω｀●)

This is just the beginning.
We were friends
I want to be more
You are unsure
I write poems fir you;
I know that you won’t see
You don’t know what I say about you
If you did you would just run away
This is just part one
Maybe there’s ten more
Maybe there’s one hundred more
But I want to feel your hands in mine
I just want to hear your voice
Just one more time.

I’m closed off and reserved.
But you see past that wall.
I hide behind Indifference;
Begging that it wouldn’t let you through.
I didn’t understand what I was feeling.
I didn’t know what to do.
I bottled it up.
But,
Eventually, you were let through.
What did you want me to do?
I tried to hide yet you found me.
You held my hand, you told me it would be okay.
You told me that I was normal.
Why did you lie?
You told me I was feeling something called love.
But I haven’t felt that for someone in years.
So why would I feel it now?
You weren’t special.
Never will be.
You faded into dust. And I couldn’t be more happy.
Because my feelings were wrong. I never loved you, I never will.
But I still have one question.
“What’s love?”

I want you to see me now.
I got better
They didn’t leave scars
My arms are fine
I wish you were here
You’re what kept me together
And I want to thank you
But
Where’d you go?
Oh
It’s a year
Please come back
Please
I’m better I promise
I even threw the letters away
I found new hobbies
I found you
I found what I needed
Please come back
I can’t do this
Please
I’m begging you..

I stand there,
Your yelling I’m crying.
I contemplate whether I should stay.
My hands are shaking, tears streaming down my face.
We’re lost in the dust of chaos.
You were always drunk.
You survived and you only became worse.
You yell at us for no reason
I wish I could leave
But you keep me trapped in this chaos you
Preventing me from leaving
You were never there
You didn’t help
You make it worse
Your name is Chaos

The stitches on the puppet rip.
The strings to control it melt.
The stitches that bind it together all snap.
The puppet comes alive,
It feels something it has never felt before
                                      Freedom
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