I’ve been lonely before, I will be again
The tears have been shed, I’ve dried my eyes.
The pain has diminished, I can finally see.
I thought I wanted you, I really wanted love.

I picked you out of the crowd, set my sights on you,
Decided you were the one for me, though I wasn’t for you
If only I had waited, if only I had seen.
I never should have told you, now it is too late.

I’ve made things change, they will never go back
Your friendship is all I want, too late now I see
The laws of nature are the cause, the reason for my ways.

What I wanted, I could not have
Human Nature demands it, no one is immune
What I want now, I fear I have lost
That is my only regret, to lose your friendship

Shawna K. Whaley

On the outside looking in, what a way to live
It's got its ups and definitely has its downs
No one to bother you, you've been left alone
No one to talk to you, you're own your own
On the outside, looking in. That's where I am
Most of my life, that's how it's been

They might open a window, might open a door
Let me hear they love me and feel they care
Then like the cold, I'd get shut out
Left to feel the hurt, the tears that follow
In my own little world, that's where I dwell
looking in on a world, as if through a window

Ignored and abandoned, all of my life
Except through a window, a window that's locked
Shut out of their world, shut up in my heart
Never to be accepted, never to be loved
On the outside, looking in. I bet you would know
Has more downs than ups, or so it does show

Shawna K. Whaley

I sit alone on this silent night,
thinking about my life gone past,
the things I did wrong, and should have done right.
I never realized that life would go by so fast.

In my mind is chaos, confusion, and fear,
I see myself spinning, spiraling down,
I feel helpless inside, I wipe away a tear.
In my own anguish, soon I will drown.

Someone please help me, please hold my hand,
I'm afraid of the thoughts inside my own head,
I need someone near me, by my side please stay,
This is my silent plea, every night before bed.

Shawna K. Whaley

Someone you can count on,
Through thick and thin, they will always be there.
Someone who can count on you,
No matter what, you will always care.

Someone you can talk to,
Tell your secrets, admit your fears.
Someone who can talk to you,
Always listening, with open ears.

Someone you can trust,
Keep your secrets, look out for you.
Someone who can trust you,
Keep their secrets, look out for them too.

Someone who is loyal,
Forgetting risks, they won't turn on you.
Someone you can be loyal to,
through it all, you remain true.

This is what friendship means to me,
The only way it should be.
For without these eight simple things,
How can it be a true friendship?

Shawna K. Whaley

Sometimes there is no end in sight
We find ourselves faced with an endless night
Waiting for a sun that never shows
The sadness inside us constantly grows

Where are the better days?
Where are the sun's rays?
When will the clouds break?
How much pain can one person take?

Smile through the hurt to hide the pain
Hide your tears by standing in the rain
Dry your eyes so they can't see
let them think that you are filled with glee

~Shawna K. Whaley

Will I be forgiven, if my life I take?
Will God Forgive me, for the choice that I might make?
If I ask before, will He accept my plea?

Will I be forgiven, by friends and family?
I'm running out of reasons, to keep myself alive.
They say there are many, but I just don't see,
I fear that I am losing control, for my sanity I strive.

Will I be forgiven, by the ones that matter most?
Will they see it as my only choice?
Will they understand, understand that I feel lost?
Can they hear it, hear the pain in my voice?

Will I be forgiven, if my life I take?
Will God forgive me, for the choice that I might make?
If I ask before, will He accept my plea?

Shawna K. Whaley