I pushed you away when you got too near,
told you to leave, though I wished you’d stay here.
You asked if I’m fine
I swore I was okay,
but my silence begged you not to walk away.
I made a scene of my sadness and pain,
lit the match, left you holding the flame.
Said you meant nothing, just to confuse
when truthfully, you were everything that I was scared to lose.
I ruined the good so I wouldn’t feel small,
dragged you down just to soften my fall.
You didn’t deserve what I turned out to be
I guess they were right when they said, misery loves company.

You left him shattered, clean cut, no mess.
And still, he doesn’t love you any less.
You’re still present but yet long gone.
A whisper, a shadow, a half-faded song.
He walks through your memory, lost in the past,
While I hold a love that was never built to last.
You’re not here, but you linger soft and cruel,
And I loved a man obeying a phantom’s rule.

It feels like I'm stuck in a curse,
Falling too hard, and always falling first.
Maybe it’s the way I love,
Maybe love isn’t meant for me,
But is it so wrong to want it, to want to be seen?
Let this curse be undone, let there be a turn,
Shift the stars, change the script,
Let the love I give finally return.
For once, let it be me who’s found,
The one who's chosen, the one unbound.

I see you with your friends,
you blend in so well.
Hating you is my guard,
loving you is a spell.
These feelings won’t end,
I can’t set them free,
I climbed so high,
why did I fall so deep?

Why can’t I escape you?
You’re always close, it seems,
A shadow in the stillness,
A whisper in my dreams.
I try to leave, to heal,
But you’re there in the quiet,
A piece of me I lost,
A weight I can’t deny it.

Why can't I forget you,
Why are you always near.
Every time I’m moving on,
you suddenly appear.
Like a shadow in the night,
you follow close behind,
A reminder of what’s lost,
a piece I can't unwind.

Distance makes the heart grow fonder,
or at least that's what they say.
But they never warned me you'd move on,
while I’m still stuck here today.