If you ever peeked in my mind
You'd watch me float clutched tightly to a notepad---or whatever the media
With colorful fish sometimes dodging between my feet
I'd feel them tickle and laugh, kicking bubbles in response, which scare the timid ones away---
the curious ones stay
It feels fantastic and light being suspended in water
Just bobbing along playfully to crests drifting by
And floating atop a hidden mystery
I never forget that any moment I could slip under, a wave too big, a tempest too sudden
But at night I'm just watching the reflection of the stars dancing in the ripples of a still calm
I trust this ever changing ocean isn't trying to swallow me up,
But is gently pushing me towards my destination, wave by wave

Oh the familiarity
Can we say deja vu
Should be a veteran now
But no matter what it's been through

The heart wants what it wants
Clichéd yet true
Goodbyes and highs
It's hard not getting stuck in the blues

For moments no one can take
Special rendezvous
Tattooed our stars with the scars
Stitched into memories we never lose

I can only offer a battered heart
That took a lesson or two
To have what it takes to weather
The ups and downs with you

Is it heart-racing or that dazzling sunset show?

Is it blushing or the sparkler casting its glow?

Is it summer's end that's got me wanting to know?

Is it a faint grin that has me ready to go?

Black, black, flows the ink from my pen

Dark dark are the demons that hound me

No where to turn except a snowy sanctuary

Promising to conceal my burden


Lifting letters off a sheet

And maybe to another heart

That can give this one a new start

Waiting for a fresh beat

Trying to remember the
World doesn't owe me

Done searching through songs for words
Sick of do re mi's

So why's it hard tuning out
All the misery

Hate admitting pride is the
Reason I'm lonely

Scared of hurting and ending
Up down on my knees

Begging for a seventh chance
Life isn't easy

At least I have this poem
To keep company

While I puzzle pieces out
Of my history...