I'm alone now
not only in my room

isolated by my 'friends'
with no one to discuss with

so I sit on my phone
writing to no one

I walk through the forest
A single set of footprints
Imprinted in the wet mud

A solitary bird
Swoops beside me
Before flying towards it's family

A lone squirrel
Runs up the tree I rest beside
Hoarding it's nuts for its winter nap

A single slug
Chasing a leaf blowing in the wind
Which I carefully place infront of it

Ants march all together
Supporting eachother through the water
Together they all march
I wish I was one too
So I'd never again walk by myself

my brain holds my tears hostage
my emotions huddled all together
in a pile at the back of my mind
logic refuses to negotiate
not letting a deal be found
for it knows if I get caught
with red eyes and puffy cheeks
I'll have to answer to the cops
that watch TV downstair

The words I say feel fake
as they pour out my mouth,
a river of assurance
hiding a false facade

My days are filled
with hoping my mask never falls,
but it's glass anyway
that attempts to conceal my face

My cheeks rosey red
as I grind my teeth together,
a pit of worry in my stomach
turns my mind over

I miss how we used to be
when we would laugh
smiling with pure joy
trust and love

that's all lost now
it's never coming back