How great would it be to build a relationship so strong that it bent for no one

You want me to fall in love with you

Sometimes you have to give up
Sometimes you have to stop holding on

lets lay under a blanket of stars
and watch the world go by

I felt it again

Everyone forgets
But you don’t have
That luxury

'Oh don't worry about him, he met a girl'
Eye twitches. Smile fades. Heart falls.
He Met a girl.
Oh I'm so happy for him I press send
I'm so happy he found someone.
Finally met THAT girl. Whoever she is.
It sure as hell wasn't me
I'm not a ******* option.
You never thought of me,
Who has liked you for months now
You thought of her. Whoever she is.
Well I'm glad you can lie in texts.
Wait, I'm glad you can lie in life.
'Aww you two are great together'
I wish she  was me.
I wish that special person was me.
But it wasn't.
okay, well nite presses send.

I'm still sick to my stomach
You can't act like its normal
Say it's in the past,
Because the feeling is still
Oh so present

I am a sixteen year old girl with
the body of a thirteen year old boy
*And that's okay

I either haven't met them
Won't meet them
Or am letting them slip
Through my fingers

I need someone
Right now

You got yourself in a dangerous zone
Cause we both have the fear, fear of being alone
And now I don't understand it
You don't mess with love you mess with the truth
And my heart don't understand it, understand it, understand it

This is the time of year when you need someone to love
And someone who loves you back

She blames herself for something
That she couldn't have changed

Our breathing slowed to a simultaneous rhythm
Supported by our hearts, beating the same

I'm dandelion to you
But Piper to who?

But I can't make the first move

I don’t belong here

"For I couldn't write an encyclopedia that would describe you well enough"

Speaking of phases
There went my self esteem

Something is not right,
I'm telling you
Something is not right

Crashing into me like waves on the coast
Wrecking ball dancing down the hallways

She thinks I'm poisoned
She thinks I'm evil

I can't live here anymore
I can't take it anymore

she won't notice when I'm gone
she won't notice one bit

Everyday the images come back
And everyday I want to throw up
And bang my head against something
Hard enough to make me stop feeling

What if you thought you deserved every bit of it

I understand
I really do
That you got those feelings
That something isn't right
I respect that
I want you to do what makes you happy
I don't want you to be uneasy or unsure
However I would like you to know
That I still love you
I do
And that that while you were feeling nauseous and wrong
I was feeling truly loved and pure bliss
I have never felt that way ever
And I'm glad that it happened
And I wanted you to know
I would have kissed you
I honest to God would have
If my friends and sister weren't there
But I also know
If you love someone let them go
And I'm so glad you told me
Because although you had me
You wouldn't have felt right
And that's what's important
You made me feel like someone actually wanted me
And although it was probably just late night drunkeness
I don't like to think if it that way
I respect you wanting to be alone
And unattached
And no matter how hard it was for me to say 'I gotchu totally'
I really do get it
I just didn't want you to have the impression
That I didn't love or want you
Because I can assure you
Everything was different for me that night
And I would have given up the cold for heat any day
The way I felt
I'm sorry if this ******* writing makes you nauseous
I'm sorry if this isn't helping you achieve what it is you want
But I thought you needed to know
Because I'm just as awkward as you when it comes to talking

Believe me when I say I *would

I could see it in your eyes
The pain you felt for me

I watch as the people I once knew
Become the people I don't know anymore
I miss them a so much
Growing up is amazing and depressing
That girl who was always happy is now sad
That girl who was so innocent is now ruined
That girl who was cracking jokes fell silent

That leads me to wonder. Did I change too?
Do others notice a small silent change in me?

I wish
But wishes are for dreamers

I would say that's good
but that's not how I feel

There comes a moment when you want to write about something so beautiful
That it refuses to be transcribed into ink, and you're stuck with only memory

Can you at least pretend like you're happy for me?
Can you for once be happy that something good happened to me?
Is it so hard to take the spotlight off of yourself once and a while?

I'll find a way out of it

It's pointless

Finally I am clearly seeing everyone
And I know they see me too
For once I feel like I am being *seen

I didnt want to

This is exactly why I use my second account
People make assumptions about poems
Not about them

My hands are quivering
And the air is cold

I was doing so much better
I was way more self confident
And now You had to
******* go there
And say the wig looks prettier
Than me. your own daughter
Laugh at me. Say Its awkward
Say it was a mistake
Say you feel bad for poor me
What do I have to do
To feel ******* pretty
What do I have to ******* do

In some cases I am hardest on the ones I love most

You will never know what I did to myself
One because I don't want you to know
And two, *because you never cared to ask

(Not) Loving you is the hardest thing I have ever had to do

Sometimes I think I am seriously taken for granted

It's funny that if I were forced to choose
I know exactly who I'd run to

It hurts so much
I’m losing touch
I hold my breath

It hurts so much

How sad it is to remember the sick feeling you got
When you felt their hand in places it shouldn't have gone
And you didn't have the heart to say no louder

Something tells me I'll ***** up a relationship
But I'm still open to getting pumped and making out?
Let's have a party
Who knows it could change my mind?