I have never felt like I am always liked or people want to be near me. But lately, especially today I feel that way. Some people get that all the time, and are completely used to that attention. And that is amazing for them, but now maybe if only for today I felt liked and wanted. And it sure did lift me up.

Silly but true

Story of My Life//One Direction, not mine

:)

Of course God first, but as in earthly things, they are what keeps me going. Without them i know I would have fallen apart again. Everytime I go through something hard I think "if they can keep strong after almost five years of scrutiny and hiding it, then I can make it through this"

Gasoline//Halsey not mine

Option-less. I feel like I can't control anything that happens in my stupid ******* life. I have a limit on what clothes I can buy, what is acceptable to go out in public in, what grades are okay, how I play in basketball, what people think about me, and now it's where I go to college. I might as well tie strings around my legs and feet so you can better control me, why not make it easier?

Hahaha I said one direction

Not about what I was thinking obviously I still think that way. It's about someone else's way of thinking but I wouldn't read into it. I have to stop assuming what other people think

I mean. Literally everything good that happens to me you shoot down and belittle my excitement.

God has blessed me, honestly, with the most amazing friend.

Self confidence lets go gorgeous:)

This is the point when everyone should probably just ignore what I'm writing because it won't make sense to you.

So I support every person in the LGBT community. But I think I myself am not really as gay as I thought. I'm finding I'm more and more attracted to guys

Sorry I write about this a lot, but I can't fix it and it's killing me

I'm confused as hell.

Done. So ******* done. **** this.

I feel like that's the only vibe I give off to some** people

Based on a horrible dream I had this morning. I know exactly why that was in my subconscious

Sorry this is vague. I don't feel like reminiscing any further

All these cues just tell me you've had enough with my dysfunctional depressed ***, and you only ask because you feel obligated to

No I'm not telling you.

I am a foolish foolish person

I'm scared

I'm sorry

I just had the biggest realization. God literally has someone absolutely perfectly amazing for me. Just for me. I'll find that person, and I'll have the relationship they have. And I don't have to worry. I don't have to worry one bit.