Me, well I've never had that
But I'll tell you it sure does
Get confusing sometimes

I want my love to spread like wildfire

I want to open up for the first time
And the persons eyes I look into
Are just as in love with me

Yes I am a ******
And you know what?
I'm proud of it
I'm glad I haven't
Let anyone touch
I can say I waited
For the perfect
Person to come around
And I will have
No regrets

I'm beautiful and anyone would be lucky to have me

I crossed the line,
More like you pushed me
And now, despite
Your crushing negativity
I feel great

I am a sixteen year old girl with
the body of a thirteen year old boy
*And that's okay

This summer will be mountains
Smooth and smoky across the land
Cool and blue gentle breezes
Take a look, your mind eases
This summer will be mountains
Tall and great, alpine meadows
Rocky snowy majestic might
I'll be awed in such a sight
This summer will be mountains
Cold creeks, fir trees, camp fires too
Road trips, starry skies, all with you

Funny how all my friends are here
And I'm still in my dark room
Laying in my small bed, **alone

You were lying

Please it's a lie
You do need curves
To be beautiful
You do need curves
For someone to want you
And don't ******* lie
Because everyone
Is materialistic,
Everyone wants a ****
Girl to play with
Sadly no one  falls
In love with
Beautiful souls
Anymore

She hates it when I sleep with her
She hates it when I crawl in bed
She hates it when I get lonely
She hates it when I get scared
I am needy, and I need someone
Who loves it when I sleep with them
And loves it when I crawl in bed
Then I know I'll never be lonely
Then I know I'll never be scared

I want to wake up, think of you
Knowing you woke up thinking of me

I haven't turned down a dare
Except for this one,
You're daring me to kiss you
But I won't, I refuse
Time for a truth instead

Sometimes you need to take a look
Realize you're the only one in it
Realize you were the only one
Thinking about actual love
That they never meant it like that
You're only in for another heartbreak
So however hard it may be,
You need to pull away

We could be
something real
Something good
If only you would

It always happens with someone you can't have

Okay stop stop stop
I am falling in love with you
Stop I know where this goes
And it hasn't worked out
Before
But
Don't
Stop

Where will this go

I look and you look away
Accidentally we lock eyes
Stop staring, what will they say?
This is a secret, keep it in
We have to stay quiet,
Never tell of our sin
When we look can they see
The love between you and me
If they did we would run away
This is the price for being gay

Heart racing
Eyes searching
Yours
Palms sweat
Legs weak
Faith testing
Yours

I couldn't see you
You were forbidden to see us
But every chance we got
We latched on and cried

Last night I had a dream,
And I cannot explain it in words
Only pictures in my head
But it was about you

I suppose I am a good person,
But just because you're good
Doesn't mean you shouldn't
Try to be even better

What do you do when you were told as a child you aren't lovable
When every boy in the class rated you a three out of ten
How do you make up the confidence torn down
How do you be affectionate when every piece of affection was bottled up
Because no one wanted it

You see I was never good at showing my soft side
For fear people would attack the underbelly of emotion
I mean why expose yourself when everyone
Already admitted you weren't lovable

There is a time when too much
affection wells up inside me
And I become rude and mean
For fear it will all drain out at
The slightest word

There are some injuries you cannot see
Some injuries you won't get to in time

and everyone says I don't care
while I'm curled in a ball thinking
*what if they don't

You're only shifting in the same old shape you always do

As much as I try and laugh
A voice in my head whispers
*They will never like you

If I could say one thing to you
Before you were ripped away
I'd say you saved a life or too
I'd fall and beg you to stay
If I had one role model
I'd defiantly say it was you
You have the purest heart of all
And that I know is true

What do you do when you look awfully cute in that dress
But that hoodie and that short hair looks amazing too

I wish I was a boy
A cute skinny boy

Aggression: pursuing ones own aims and interests forcefully
Yes, I would agree, I am aggressive

Did you ever stop to notice?

What have we’ve done to the world
Look what we've done
What about all the peace
That you pledge your only son...
What about flowering fields
Is there a time
What about all the dreams
That you said was yours and mine...
Did you ever stop to notice
All the children dead from war
Did you ever stop to notice
This crying Earth, this weeping shore

Our breathing slowed to a simultaneous rhythm
Supported by our hearts, beating the same

I would like to sincerely apologize to everyone for being a disappointment

It's pointless

I'm sorry I'm normally fairly upbeat
It's ******* fine, I'm ******* fine
This isn't a joke anymore
These arent poems they are
Cries for help I won't accept

They are just tear stains, they'll wash out

She's athletic, sweet, smart, a charm
I'm not there

She looked real pretty walking up
Her medals, hanging, sway
Sorry you got stuck with me,
A failure every day

Can you tell it's taken a toll on me physically
Can you see the fog inside my head if,
I am brave enough to make to make eye contact
My body is literally breaking down

Forgive? Trust me I do
But forget? I try but
It's always on my mind

Tic tac toe, you're fitting into place
And now the old ways don't seem true
Stick stop blue you're only shifting
In the same old shape you always do

I'm tired of holding myself up
I'm tired of standing
I want someone to carry me
I want someone to sit with me
I need someone right now

Weak. I feel weak

In some cases I am hardest on the ones I love most