Sometimes i let the weight of the world crush me,
But i don't even have to hold it...



i've been in hell, have came back, and couldn't tell the difference,
but what i've learned, and what i've endured prepared me for the blessing i was going to inevitably have.

All I had to do was not give up.


So...don't give up. A blessing is on it's way.
Let's do this together.

Steady
Anxiety climbing up my back as we cling and latch on,
Pulling, gripping, 'til we're up, up, up, and on top,
Paused
Peering out at the world, gawking and gazing,
Vision reformed into the lens of a fishbowl,
Intensity
Sweat racing down our faces as our hearts patter more paces,
******
Yanked by the Earth, like lightning from the sky,
Why, oh, why, we yell with no tears to cry,
Falling
Exciting as it may be, terrifying, we fall, fall, fall,
Tantalizing
An ending to the torment, so close but so far from our fingertips,
Spun around and tossed, like a pinball to a jester, tricked, fooled,
Entertained
A little under the weather, we're getting kind of queasy,
Hoarse from all the screaming, some are kind of Weezy,
Calm
At the end of the rollercoaster, shock, pause, disheveled,
What a journey it is, what a wonder, fun, scary, hard, emotional,
End

I can't get you out of my mind...
And yet I've already left yours...
I just want to be someone a good and mutual love could find
But i always get dropped like your unwanted chores...

Can't you see my smile, behind all of my bleeding
No wonder you find it wild, that it's tears that I am seeping
I've cause my own destruction, though I knew feelings were fatal

and now i'm here dying slowly
in a world so ******* hateful

I didn't ask to like you, no
I wanted to forget you, but instead, now i know

all these little unnecessities that I don't need to, so


here i am dying...alive...heart becoming hollow

Slowly withering, like a plant, gone by the tiniest winds blow

Ever since i met this world
I always found myself in trouble
stumbling over the bodies of the empty
and influenced by poison, seeing double
Someone wants to see my fall
And I find that some type of funny
Because I don't see that as a loss at all
Cause i'm the bee and I make the honey
See, I control what they can see
And I maneuver what they will not
I can play the game too
But I simply choose not to, no one's at fault