Late last night within my dreams
Chasing the wind, it showed me scenes
How it carved the mountains steep
Made the canyons very deep
Showing me cities centuries old
Glittering in the sun layerd in gold
I watched as the wind carried the sands of time
Burying the cities up, it felt like a loss it felt like a crime

I chased the wind so very far, I had to know
How do you pick where and how hard to blow

"Child by now you should see
I am not in control of me
Like every force of nature, we harken to His voice
What I do is His choice
From the gale winds that tosses ships
Or tornados that through communities rip
I'm the cool kiss on a soldiers sweaty brow
At their feet I spread the sent of death so foul
I touch every single blade of grass
Flowers nod a greeting as I pass
I do my masters bidding without question
Every single thing is but a lesson"

"Brace my friend, Your Winds of change are about to be
You'll no longer have to go chase me
Begging the creator to let it be good just this once
To let you taste happiness and joy in abundance
Through way to many years I have watched you cried
It saddens me all your tears I have dried"

Though you will look but never see
You will always fell the essence that is me
I was your first breath of life, that first pain filled cry
I was there every step, every stumble along your journey, I promise to be your last sigh

©Pauline Russell

In my room locked up tight, so no one else could see
I got your shirt from it's hiding spot and held it close to me
I buried my face in it and inhaled, it still held your wonderful smell
I closed my eyes so very tight, it was almost like you were there
I could almost feel your arms the way you would  hold me tight
I  almost heard your voice, telling me it would be alright

But reality always has a way of creeping in
There is no stoping, tears flowing again
I will never again love, how could I
There's absolutely no reason why
Only left with halve a heart, and that part is shattered
Besides there'll never be another you, so it really doesn't matter

©Pauline Morris

Keeping feelings behind my forts
Thoughts continually contorts
Vision before my eyes distorts
Universe continuously escorts
All the sorrow it transports
All my efforts it thwarts
So I'm feeling out of sorts

©Pauline Russell

She waves her hands back and forth across her face
Were eyes pour tears that free fall to her feet
She pleads to whoever, whatever that's out there listing
"please, please no more sadness, it's crushing me from within"
A pitiful moan escapes from the bottom of her being
She collapses as if the bones have escaped her body
Lying there scarcely breathing
She braces for the anguish to wash over.... once again

©Pauline Russell

Stuck inside my head
This is where I fled
I can't find my way out
The bars are much to stout

I scream and shout
I fling about
Searching throughout
There just is no rout

I'm stuck inside my head
So much is left unsaid
I've lost so many friends
In here there is no wins

Going round the bend
No one comprehends
Thoughts just condemn
Slowly sink and descend

I'm stuck inside my head
This is from where I bled
The bars were just to stout
I couldn't find my way out

©Pauline Morris

Sitting on this shelf
Drowning in myself
I think that I'm in hell
**** this flesh made cell

I've got something to tell
Thoughts to dark, my head's not well
It wasn't supposed to be this way
I've got something to say

Broken as a child
Sent my spirit wild
Parties, ***** and pills
Trying to cure my ills

I've got something to tell
Thoughts to dark, my head's not well
It wasn't supposed to be this way
I've got something to say

Relationships with broken men
All of them, barbarian
I left them far behind
Took care of me and mine

I've got something to tell
Thoughts to dark, my head's not well
It wasn't supposed to be this way
I've got something to say

Children grown
I'm all alone
Darkness grows
Sorrow shows

I've got something to tell
Thoughts to dark, my head's not well
It wasn't supposed to be this way
I've got something to say

Sitting on this shelf
Drowning in myself
I think that I'm in hell
**** this flesh made cell

©Pauline Morris