Honestly I miss you
I wish I didn’t
I wish I could hate you
But you were so perfect for me
I’m not even sure what went wrong
Were you afraid?
Afraid of losing me
Because my lungs did heal
I’m no longer critical
Were you guilty?
Haunted by mistakes I had already forgiven
Because you hurt me but I still loved you
You said I deserved someone better
That’s sweet hon but I didn’t want someone better
I wanted you to stop distancing yourself from me
I wanted you period
I loved you
And you told me you loved me
Or was that a lie too?

Sitting idly
Silently
Watching
Or just existing

The poet lives two lives.
One on the outside,
And one in their mind.

When you look in their eyes
You could see an abyss.

If you looked long enough
You could sink into it.

But most people don’t see it.

Take the time to read the words, though,
And you would know for sure.

The poet lives in two different worlds.

Lights flicker lamentfully leaning left. The metallic groan of the ship echoes through its chasms. It travels swiftly growing soft as it ventures further into the depths. The crash of waves ceaselessly chanting like an old drinking song. Cargo shifts suddenly straining against its restraint. The dank and damp deck is desolately decorated. In the dim light shadows torture the imagination with visions of fantastic nightmares and beautiful beasts. A violent stop sends you reeling backwards. You’re stomach fills with lead as you reluctantly climb to your feet. The door cracks open to reveal hollow eyes. As the door widens you are greeted by a devilish grin belonging to a devilishly handsome fellow. He exstends his hand but not in offering. No, this was a sinister demand. With shaking hands you sacrifice two golden coins to his strong hand. He grins and holds the door open for you with grandeur. Your breath catches in your thoat. Fear strangles you silently spreading though your body. Paralysis plagues you presently playing with your mind. But this is no time for fear. This is time for peace. So with closed eyes and baited breath you pass through the door and into eternity.