My soul will wait in the shadows until the day it can see your light next
A chariot of grace and comfort will bring me back to you
My heart will ache each day you are gone
Until it may once more collide with yours and light the world on fire
If there was one thing I could say to you it would be as follows

You
Are more than I will ever be
You are the forest which gives my lungs the air to breathe
All of the earth congregates to you for your wisdom and strength to keep growing
Life comes to you for guidance and solace

Me To You
I want to keep you grounded
Never to hold you back, but to always show you where your heart would be welcome
I want to be the source of your life and nourishment
To keep you alive and well so your trees may prosper

There is beauty in everything
Remembering
that beauty does not mean "good" or "lovely"
Beauty is "stunning" and "awe-inspiring"
Forest fires can be beautiful
so can your heart break
As long as you look deep enough for it

Where the sky melts
Time has no value
The water flows backwards
Where?
No one knows
None have come back from such a place

Blood runs clear
Tears turn to gold
Darkness itself has no where to hide in this space
Stillness replaces air
Cries are the only records to play- while sorrows sound off
No others return from such a place
None but you

I'll need replacements
within the next few years.
Not organs
or other tissues
people can donate.
No, I'll need
entirely new pieces
in seven to ten years.
I'll only be thirty or so-
and more or less
half bionic.
The news is cold,
some would say cold as steel.
Those people joke
in good humor
trying to dull my fears.
My worst ones.
Those mainly being-

Will my everything still find me attractive
-even after surgery?

Will my kids even think I'll be human?
-my legs wont be made of biological material

When half of me is prosthetic
-will I even love myself?

Only after you stop breathing does drowning get easier
The body stops writhing
The lungs stop gasping
And the heart, she stops beating

The water carries away the empty cage
But the soul will go on
It will continue to undulate through the water

Living will be harder
But existing will become easier...
....once you stop breathing

Soup soup soup you make my heart go bloop
bloop bloop bloop drop a ******* in my soup

And then they did it. They lept into the never ending darkness.
The abyss consumed them, all of them. Not a single soul was spared that night.
And in this darkness they saw.
They saw the horror and terror. They saw Death and they saw the Dark.
It was then they knew evil.

The burning coals are hot against your feet
I know its warm and that you want to cry
The image of the ash will be quite sweet
The only thing you have to do is try

The fire of my heart within your hand
Where is the part of you I get to hold?
Please give me the key to your holy land
Promise me these flames will not grow cold

Your flame burns a different shade of purple
Our blaze together can form a flower
Let us live within the sacred circle
You alone will ****** away my power

Feel the heat under your feet and find
All the pain we feel is in your mind

I can feel the storm rolling in
My aching joints tell me it's time
To seek shelter beneath warm blankets
Waiting for the rains to fall from my eyes
And wash away the pains of this body
Mind
Emotions
And soul

-this shooting star shoots across the Sky
Like the tears rolling down my satin cheeks
An invisible corset tying itself around my chest
As if it couldn't also see the imperfections somewhere lower

There's no poetic way
To say everything is ****
Some grim realities
Can't be glued
To the wings of butterflies

You cant love me
And not because
You're incapable
Of loving
It's simply because
You're incapable
Of loving me

People can't be afraid of heights
-they're afraid of falling
Or maybe it's the fear of hitting the ground
Love is this way too

No one is afraid of the height
The soft touch of fingers melding
Or the lingering moments after the kiss
Nor do people fear the falling

Not a soul would wish away those falling moments
Of the first time your sentence was also hers
Like the moments just a glance can change fate
Falling so deep into the little glances at something greater

With love we don't fear the falling or the heights
We fear the stiff reality at the bottom
Those fearful of love know the pain of hitting the ground

The pain of the fight that lasted three days
Or when words were not loud enough so the doors broke the silence
But mainly the pain of the frostbite setting in
From the spot where they no longer reside

Darling please
Let me rip your clothes off now
Dont worry
I'll be sure to fold them in the morning

Its messy
And perfect

Complicated
And easy

Intricate
And simple

Peaceful
And painful

...Oh god
And it can be excruciating

But we're in love
And I'll brave anything

I will give you my hand
Listen to your demands
Only in these second hand moments
I'm yours
My hand in these times doesn't guarantee
Forever
Only for as long as God and other like him
Can bare to watch
Before even they must turn away
From this less than graceful act
That we will forever give our hands to
During those makeshift meetings

There are times
Even in love
When frustration becomes
A malevolent force

To my partner
I give it all
Or would even sacrifice
If needed

I love this spirit
With all of my being
But ****
How do I express this

This...


This.

No these


These feelings I have
****
Too many of them
To even count

I don't know if its love
Love makes you want to kiss
And sing
Maybe even procreate

No, but he
For him I feel so much more
My whole body
Feels these things not just my head

Is knowing that you'll be the one
To break my heart
For the last time

Theres nothing I can do
Or want to do
To stop you

I know my fate and the role you play
So I'm here to love you
Until the moment you destroy the last pieces of me

I can tell how he's doing
Just by how he answers the phone

We dated for four years
And I'm still not even sure
I know their birthday

If he is a sin
Then I am a sinner
Ready to let the flames devour my tainted flesh
To rip away all impurities given to me
During the fastest closed-door sessions  
Each beat of his heart adding moments of endless torment
But I will gladly endure the pain
To trade it all for his pleasure
Ever waiting to be thrown once more
Pressed down into the sheets of lust
The oxygen leaving my lungs to be refilled with pain from the palm
Pain which stings so innocently
I know that if I look into that soul
Down deep into the darkest depths
There is where I serve my sentence

Even all I had
Wasn't good enough
I would have ripped out my own heart
Just for a touch of yours
I would have melted my soul
If only to taste yours
I wanted to feel something so bad
I guess it made you feel nothing

His honesty
Lights the way
To a home in him
I never knew I had

I want my words
To make your soul sing

So what would I have to say?

Love, do you even know
What you want to hear?

These whiskey feelings
I give myself
Straight from the bottle
Are often sweeter
Than you ever were

These whiskey feelings
I give myself
Straight from the cup
Tonight
**** me more than anything else
And leave me more empty
Than I have ever been

He makes me feel warmer
Than the whiskey as it goes down

I would never again
touch another drop
If it meant you'd be forever
but until then
allow me to drink myself
into complacency

I could hear you talking in your sleep
Your lips quivered as you whispered those words
My ear perked up and my legs began to quake
What was it you said?
Say it again, louder for me?
But where your lips failed to speak
Your heart recited the lines
With each trace of my fingers over your skin your heart screamed
And I knew it was screaming for me

This is me leaving you
Before I destroy you too

Writing in prose
allows me to freely say
*******
without needing to rhyme
or sugar coat it in metaphors
until the point gets lost in imagery

Ahhh baby,
Don't cry as the snow falls
You're just a winter flower
Waiting to bloom in the spring

Only fools say:
"I should have known better"
Because a wise person
Would have never made such mistakes

You can wish for different circumstances
But you cannot will them into happening

Silly boy
Broke my heart

Hes a toy
Been from the start

But we got this way
And its all jumbled

Seems my hearts to pay
For this fumble

You're going to resent me tomorrow
And the hatred will follow
But I have to do what is best for me
that's always been the key

Last night I slept for the first night in weeks
The bottle sang me the lullaby
You never could

You've even made me hate
the words God graciously gave me
So all I have left to scream
Void of all grace and beauty:
*******.

It became
All too real
Excitement
Passion
Grace
But so did the
Fear and
Loss

But not hope
It will be the light
To guide me back
Into your arms

On your hands
Doing what you do
If she doesn't know
it will soon become the mistress

With time like that
On your hands
All you have left to do
Is dream

Oh if I only had the words to say. The words to use so you would stay. I love you and I know that feeling will never stray. Can’t you just take a moment to look into my eyes and see the grey? I need you in my life, I need you be here to sleep with me.
I need your warm arms to hold me close during the dark and late nights. I need you for all the times the storm clouds roll in . I need your love to be with me always. I need your body and your soul. Please stay with me. Don’t go, and don't fret.

In a few hours
The sun will come up
He will be gone
And will any of it
Even matter?

Is it wrong
to burn souls
In order to save my own?

When it comes down to it,
humans will do anything
for self-prevalence
and survival

So,
does the arson make me evil?

I've been here
No old news
Yes, I'm the same girl
from your cuffing season blues

Marks the spot
Where you buried my heart

You are the most I have ever met
I have never been so caught in a soul
So may doors to enter
Though which the one I opened
Has taught me to see
What I could be
And how your life is closer to mine than anything before
You are perfection
Only because you are all that I wish to be
After opening this door
I could see that you are I
And I am me

I can feel your love fading
And that's fine.
I always knew
This day would come.
I just never anticipated
That I could be replaced so quickly.

Every time
You ever told me
To stop
Being a piece of me
I remembered
All of your nights
Curled up to Jameson
And I realised
The only thing
That will
Ever make you whole again
Is going to be that bottle

I said it would take months
looks like it only took moments

Soon you'll learn
That time is no different than space