This is me leaving you
Before I destroy you too

Writing in prose
allows me to freely say
*******
without needing to rhyme
or sugar coat it in metaphors
until the point gets lost in imagery

Ahhh baby,
Don't cry as the snow falls
You're just a winter flower
Waiting to bloom in the spring

Only fools say:
"I should have known better"
Because a wise person
Would have never made such mistakes

You can wish for different circumstances
But you cannot will them into happening

Silly boy
Broke my heart

Hes a toy
Been from the start

But we got this way
And its all jumbled

Seems my hearts to pay
For this fumble

You're going to resent me tomorrow
And the hatred will follow
But I have to do what is best for me
that's always been the key

Last night I slept for the first night in weeks
The bottle sang me the lullaby
You never could

You've even made me hate
the words God graciously gave me
So all I have left to scream
Void of all grace and beauty:
*******.

It became
All too real
Excitement
Passion
Grace
But so did the
Fear and
Loss

But not hope
It will be the light
To guide me back
Into your arms

On your hands
Doing what you do
If she doesn't know
it will soon become the mistress

With time like that
On your hands
All you have left to do
Is dream

Oh if I only had the words to say. The words to use so you would stay. I love you and I know that feeling will never stray. Can’t you just take a moment to look into my eyes and see the grey? I need you in my life, I need you be here to sleep with me.
I need your warm arms to hold me close during the dark and late nights. I need you for all the times the storm clouds roll in . I need your love to be with me always. I need your body and your soul. Please stay with me. Don’t go, and don't fret.

In a few hours
The sun will come up
He will be gone
And will any of it
Even matter?

Is it wrong
to burn souls
In order to save my own?

When it comes down to it,
humans will do anything
for self-prevalence
and survival

So,
does the arson make me evil?

I've been here
No old news
Yes, I'm the same girl
from your cuffing season blues

Marks the spot
Where you buried my heart

You are the most I have ever met
I have never been so caught in a soul
So may doors to enter
Though which the one I opened
Has taught me to see
What I could be
And how your life is closer to mine than anything before
You are perfection
Only because you are all that I wish to be
After opening this door
I could see that you are I
And I am me

I can feel your love fading
And that's fine.
I always knew
This day would come.
I just never anticipated
That I could be replaced so quickly.

Every time
You ever told me
To stop
Being a piece of me
I remembered
All of your nights
Curled up to Jameson
And I realised
The only thing
That will
Ever make you whole again
Is going to be that bottle

I said it would take months
looks like it only took moments

Soon you'll learn
That time is no different than space

You dont love her
For the flower she is.

You don't kiss evey petal
As tender as the breeze intended.

You don't prop her stem
Allowing her to grow tall and strong.

You love her
Like your next victim
-like the prey you think she is

You love her
By giving her the water she needs
-only to drown her in it

You love her
By plucking her from the ground
-and ending her beauty

If the opposite of depression
Is not happiness
But mania
Then the opposite of loving you
Is not hatred
But hysteria

For a woman from Hell

I love when my lovers calling lips
Still sting of the water

With you I can keep my eyes open
And the dream still unfolds.
I don't have to waste time sleeping
Just to have you next to me.

Tell me that you dreamt of losing me
I want to see the tears in your eyes
As you tell me how I walked away
Hearing your voice break as you whisper
Don't go
Ache as you tell me this other worldly fear
Realize that you're not sleeping
Open your eyes before I'm gone

But you can save me

I'd kiss your name
On all the flowers
So the Earth could sing
In Color

Your greatest gift
has always been your jaw
Strong and unwavering
Making it nearly impossible
to gather your emotions and thoughts

But your greatest weakness has always been
caught between the moments
you put pen to paper
and sacrifice your heart
Exposing your internal
and true
weaknesses

Now I can see it all

But here you are
On the frontlines
Fighting a war
For someone who will never
Wage the same battles
For you

Before my heart claims you
And my head regrets it in the morning

I know goodbye
Isn't forever
But time without you
Feels like eternity

You're Twisted
and Sick

You're Doubtful
and Hopeless

You're Wicked
and Evil

You're Facetious
and Rude

You're Everything
I am not