Taiela Kae Garcia: Poems

Taiela Kae Garcia Mar 2020

When no one else ever seemed to care,
My Demons have always been right there.
Each time I've lost the will to fight,
They've promised to hold me all through the night.
Though they may help for just a while,
Without them I could never smile.
No longer do they wait to be invited,
For we have bonded and can't be divided.
On the lonely nights they keep me warm,
An evil shelter from a perfect storm.
Full of lust and full of greed.
Growing stronger each time they feed.
My Demons keep me from going insane,
They help to numb me from all my pain.
Never did I want them to hold on so long,
But their grip is tight, and their grip is strong.
Now whenever reality requires some quick evading,
There they are so patiently waiting.
So when my world becomes something I begin to fear,
My Demons whisper softly into my ear,
"We are here my dear, we will help you cope,
All you need is a little more dope... "

By:
T.K.

#addiction

For What It's Worth.....

Taiela Kae Garcia Nov 17

For What It's Worth.....

It will never matter how far I have come,
Or any of the good I have done.

Forever I will be the person ready to loose.
The person you know you should never want to choose.

I failed to grow or to learn to be there for myself.
I'd be better off collecting dust on some forgotten shelf.

Justifying my faults only allowed for me to run,
Straight back to my demons so I could quickly succumb,
Anytime I feel that I want to feel numb.
Helping me to avoid any wrongs I had done.

However,
I have inflicted too much sorrow
I have caused you to feel empty and hollow.
And now I stand before u, knowing I'm someone you no longer need.
So from me you have wished to forever be freed.

I don't know where my sanity has went.
Because none of this **** was ever my intent.

It no longer matters any word I have ever spoken,
Because my actions are what left you so broken.

I am so ashamed I wasn't able to be,
The love in which you deserved to believe.

You gave me your heart void of malice and greed.
I'll never know why I so selfishly just let it ******* bleed.

Fragile

Taiela Kae Garcia Jan 2021

Fragile

Ink bleeds through paper,
Like pain from my heart.
Like the poison in my veins
Love is deadly from the start.
Nothing to quench me,
No way to feel whole.
Fed up with others ill intentions,
I am no longer paying their toll.
Forever stuck in this hell
With no one to fight with me.
Lost inside the darkness
With no one to hold a light for me.
I keep giving too much
Getting nothing in return.
I've been living for others
While I am not of their concern.
Whatever you might chose to say
Please stand by your word.
Because anything you have to say
Is a promise you I've already heard.
Do not take me for granted
Try to appreciate what you've got.
Because this broken heart is dumb enough to give love one more shot.
I'm not strong enough for another battle I can't take much more.
I'm starting to question what the hell I've even been fighting for.
This tender soul has been so badly severed.
Plagued with memories I wish where never remembered.
So if you are real and mean what you say,
Don't make me a joke or another game for you to play.
If you chose to hold me tight until my broken pieces come back together,
Then I swear I will love you today tomorrow and until forever.

By: T.K.

My Name is Mask

Taiela Kae Garcia Sep 2018

My Name is Mask

Nice to meet you
My name is Mask,
I smile and say "I'm fine"
To all those who ask.
Your secrets I keep hidden
From all those prying eyes,
Camouflage your emotions
Your feeling become lies.
Wear me for too long and
Your soul I may steal,
Steep price to pay just to
Not want to feel.
Often in life we're judged by
Those who know not our
whole story,
Who live equally fake sheltered
By false glory.
Not all of us can handle
The monster inside,
That's why I am worn
So he can safely hide.
Removing me is a task
Not easily done.
You must fight with yourself
Until one of you has won.
So if ever you want to face
The beast within,
Prepare yourselves for war
And let your games begin...

By,
T.K.

No Apologies

Taiela Kae Garcia Aug 2021

No Apologies

Step a little closer
Don't be afraid.
I am merely the monster
Everyone else has made.

Gone is my innocence
My purity my youth.
This world has changed me
It's the evil truth.

Cursed by vanity.
Plagued by insanity.
Caught in the charade
Of life's endless masquerade.

Between the heartache
And pain,
I've lost myself
And will never be the same.

Drowning in deceit
Lies have taken full affect.
Tortured by reality
The agony I inject.

Pieces of me have died
A little bit one by one.
I'll continue breaking
Until I have none.

Strength is a virtue
I was born without.
That came to me later
After learning what this world is all about.

So why should I apologize
For the monster I've become?
No one has ever apologized
For the damage they have done.

By:
T.K.

#monster #apologize

Organic Dont Panic

Taiela Kae Garcia Apr 2021

Organic Dont Panic

When the entire world is on my case,
Only one thing returns the smile to my face.
I call upon a friend I've known for years,
Guaranteed to wipe away all my tears.
I climb inside of our glass bed,
Instantly he begins to relieve my head.
And by keeping us warm beside the fire,
He allows our cloud to float higher and higher.
He's more precious then diamonds and more treasured then gold.
Never have I had a someone so willing to be bought traded or sold.
He is my best friend and always there when I need.
Hes my one. Hes my only. Hes my ****......

By:
T.k.

#**** #bestfriend

Satan's Clutches

Taiela Kae Garcia Mar 2020

Satan's Clutches

Constantly I struggle to survive each day,
Always feared I'd end up this way.
My vision is blurry my mind unclear,
I became a puppet and the Devil my puppeteer.
He controls every action, every move, every thought.
Can't believe for so little my soul has been bought.
With all I know now I only wish I'd known then,
Never would I have allowed for Satan's tricks to begin.
Now my body is aching, my arms are sore,
I can hear the Reaper knocking at my door.
And as life starts to draw down my final curtain,
The one thing I can I say I learned for certain,
Is no matter how hard you keep clawing and scraping,
From Satan's clutches there is no escaping.

By:
T.K.

#addiction #darkness

Unentitled Genious

Taiela Kae Garcia Feb 2020

Unentitled Genious

The pressure keeps rising,
Still I keep trying,
To silence the voices in my head.

I keep on disguising,
Hoping no one's realizing,
That on the inside I am dead.

Memories, they swallow.
Emotions, made me hollow.
My monsters are needing fed.

No matter my sorrow,
It's the same fight tomorrow.
Down a dark path I've been led.

Every breath I grow more tense.
Nothing seems to make sense.
I've felt the evil begin to spread.

All at another's expense,
My life has grown so intense,
This harsh reality I've come to dread.

Mistakes I keep repeating,
These demons I'm not defeating.
I know what lies ahead.

Myself I have been cheating,
My self worth I am depleting,
Wishing I had the courage instead,

To take on this pain,
To not go insane,
So I'm not hanging by a thread.

Tired of this game,
Everyday feels the same,
I have been horribly horribly misread......

By:
T.K.

What do you expect?

Taiela Kae Garcia Mar 2020

What do you expect?

Been ridin' through hell.
My mind locked in a cell.
Who am I? Its getting harder and harder for me to tell.

Don't like the way I'm feeling.
Smokin' my issues instead of dealing.
What am I doing because I know what this is stealing.

Fantasy and reality have started to blend
Still I so foolishly pretend,
My greatest enemy was not once my treasured friend.

It should come as no surprise,
He fed me so full of lies.
He was no saint, just the devil in disguise.

He painted false illusions.
His promises were only delusions.
All my problems started out as solutions.

So much of myself he helped me deprive.
There's no guarentee he'll let me out alive.
I'm starting to grow cold, and only the strong survive.

As I draw in my last breath,
For he has finally led me to my death.
But what do you expect when you're heart has fallen in love with ****.....

By:
T.K.

#addiction #love

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