being suicidal was fine
since there was always that option
but now, that I don't want to die?
there's no way out of it
it's a little bit cruel, how that works

there's not enough talk
about accepting death with no afterlife
I can't read hundreds of articles
on how to comfort myself of this fact

my shorter poems get all the attention
just cuz yall too lazy to read the rest

yeah the dread is a little bit completely overwhelming
the famous daves billboard gives me a lot of anxiety
I watched a youtube video about "haunted" instagram posts
humanity has allowed all of this to happen
it's so ****** weird
humans are the weirdest ******* coincidence
maybe I need to listen to a different playlist
cut off this train of thought as abruptly possible
block it out until I die
that's what I've been doing this whole time, yeah?

I'm either dead
or in fear
the inbetween is nice
but still there are sides to the spectrum

someone once told me
they believed the afterlife was a new earth
some call this hell
but for once
i hoped someone was right

you can't scare me
with the concept of hell
you'd think, if you're there an eternity
you'd get used to it eventually