It's my birthday and all I can do is think of what to wish for when the candles go out and I've completed at acknowledging that I'm 16.

My first wish came to mind was to heal physically quickly .
My second wish is to love myself completely
My third wish is a charm which I thought of you and how I wish we could talk like we used too.

I want to scream out that love isn't real ,but no matter the arguments
I kept you in mind . This love we had why did I lose sight .
I was tired of all of those fights .
I miss you come back let's make it right.

Thank you for showing me what it's like to feel alive without a substance in sight.
Sorry for being so complicated when I thought "I love you" was a lie.

I hate the fact your not good with your words
Actions you show but lately they've been frozen like snow.

Thank you for allowing us to break each other's heart because now my writing has come out of the dark.
Sorry for playing a part in our relationship operation fall apart .

Staring at my reflection reminds me of a horror movie when a scary scene is about to happen and you just want to look away .
Disgusted by my acne face and small eyes ,a big nose.
My mind is telling me lies.
I yet have accomplished to see the beauty in my hidden features of imperfections.
I'm a dumpster waiting to be cleaned.
In hope I'll feel better about the trash put inside me.
Disfigured ,longing for some peace.
I don't want to be in this skin that was stitched neatly to make me complete .
I want to pull out my strings and form a different shape.
All I am is a circle empty to the reach
Please let me be a sphere
Let me grow into a 3D figure my feelings need to grow bigger .
These lies need to hinder .