I want my words to be beautiful.
Beautiful like yours.
I want to see ordinary things,
Find the magic in them,
And put the magic on a page, for everyone to understand.

I want to have a way with words.
I want every poem of mine
To become a masterpiece.
Just like yours.

I am not broken.

But you are.

You see the world through pain,
And pain makes the colors brighter.
It makes the value of feelings
Climb higher.

Sometimes I wonder
If I should be broken like you
If I want my words to resonate
Like yours.

Sometimes I wonder,
If it will be truly worth it
In the end.

I wonder what it will be like,
To cut myself up to pour out the beauty inside me.

Just like you.

I imagine that you
Raise the blade
Slice your feelings open
And write your masterpiece
In red.

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A crowded city street,
strolling a narrow sidewalk,
your hand in mine
Pastel neon lights paint the buildings
in soothing colors,
softening sharp edges,
creating a wonderland
on this warm summer night

A small bistro, street side tables
candle light and tablecloths
tiny dancing flames on white linen
igniting your smile as we take a seat
amidst the din of taxi cabs
racing to find the sunset,
lover’s fare put to good use
in backseat desires

Two glasses of Pinot,
fine crystal offerings
as are your eyes, glistening,
dark chocolate petals
calling me in, hypnotized
free falling into your heart  
as I drink them in slowly,
tasting every tantalizing gaze

A toast to us, touching glasses,
touching hearts, changing lives
as I wonder what I have done
to deserve this dream, you and me,
no one else exists, the city bustles
unnoticed as we sip the fruits
of our love on an enchanting evening
hoping it never ends…

I listened to the gentle throbbing
of your heart beneath my head
As we settled into the afterglow
in the warmth of your bed
As we lie there together, just breathing
I thought to myself
how I had less of a need
for anything else
I doesn't take lots of money
to make things okay
It just takes communication
to keep my worried heart at bay
And it doesn't take diamonds
to prove ones devotion
Our love has kept us together
Despite miles or mountains or oceans
It doesn't take words
spilled from unsure mouths
Or a luxurious life
Or a big, fancy house
It will only take time
because we deserve and need it so
For my healing and for security
To honor our love and let it grow
Time to create memories
that we will look back on and sigh
Time to experience and enjoy each other
and more time to laugh until we cry

Intensity
The feeling you give me
When your eyes penetrate my layers
Suspended and upside-down like my world
Peeling away my defenses
Making me feel like a little girl
You scan the canvas of my every flaw
Inhibitions torn open and ****** raw
Like a pair of ******* taken off with your teeth
An incredible tease and eventual relief
As you move in for your sensual ****
My body responds to each and every thrill
Intensity
Beyond belief

A hazy early morning clears
Slowly opening weary eyes
Realizing you're not here
Counting the seconds
as they drag by
And as I fell to sleep
I imagined you were there
With me
I recalled the time
Before you were really mine
When all we had
Was a melting phone line
And it dawned on me
How amazing life can be
While I cherish this single, silent tear
I still wish you were here

It was a dark and stormy night
Oceans of tears I didn't want you to taste
My face wet with confusion and fright
Waking you from your slumber in haste
I kept thinking that his ship was sailing
While I'm here simply sinking
As the life I built drifted away
Was I letting myself drown
Was I letting you down?
But the truth is that my saving grace
Is your loving touch and your beautiful face
We just need to be alone
Someplace safe where we can be at home
You've set us upon a course
That leaves little room for remorse
I just need to float away with you
A little boat to spend the days with you
To seek the bliss we are sure to find
Once I can rest my troubled mind

The coming of dawn
And my mind lingers on
The set of hopes and dreams
We keep building upon
With every touch of your hand
I better understand
How much of yourself
You give to our plans
These long, quiet nights
Spent bathed in your light
Still living on your essence
Waiting for the time to be right
I want you to know
As we learn and we grow
That your arms are my home
There is no place I'd rather go

Deep, velvet darkness summons me
Although she will only tease and taunt
A black cloak of restlessness
Leaving me sleepless and filled with want
So many nights draped in such sweet longing
The taste of your skin on my breath
Hoping that this ache never ends
A dream we share that will surpass Death