May you always be
This precious to me
My sweet, darling lover
You take me over
So powerfully
Lie still with me sometimes
And when we walk, hold my hand
When I am hurting or angry
Try to soothe and understand
With each goodnight kiss
You seem to grant my every wish
Just give me your love
Keep me always in mind
And I will be the softest refuge
your heart will ever find

Sweet and all-consuming
The spell you have cast is looming
Hovering like a halo
over my head
Making me wish
I was back in your bed
The scent of your skin
begins to fade
And the ache between my thighs
where your mouth last laid
Begins to build upon itself
Only you can resolve it
There is no one else
My wanton lust
and my desire for pain
Will not be satisfied
Until I feel you again
Please hear me, my Love
As I beckon to you
I'm holding my breath
Until I turn blue

All the time I've spent with you
Still fascinated by our connection
Love has never felt so true
It feels like romantic resurrection
The lights go down each evening
And my heart seeks her other half
Aching for the next kiss from your lips
Waiting patiently for the night to pass
I love you so, my precious man
An ecstatic future lit by moonbeams
Just be with me and hold my hand
And I'll see you tonight in my dreams

Awake for hours
Before morning breaks
My body never settled
And my heart still aches
It feels like days
Since I kissed your lips
Even though it was just hours
I always feel like this
So I lie here waiting
In the dark
Wishing my head was resting
On your precious heart
Forever grateful
For the time we share
It's hard to not want
And to not always be there
But there's no need
For your concern
I only ache
Because I yearn
For the love of you
And your sensual touch
It's just been one of those nights
When I missed you too much
I'm thankful for you
And the love you give
For our future ahead
And the life we will live

So hard to ignore the longing
When it starts to take hold
Your arms make me feel safe
and warm me when I'm cold
I hope our hearts will remember
When we forget what we've been told
That when there is trouble
To love even harder, heart and soul
I will try to remember your fragility
Even now, long before we're old
And keep creating memories
As our story continues to unfold

Heaven at the tip of your tongue
Hips writhing before you've even begun
Honey dripping off your chin
Lips whispering tales of sin
Wile away the evening hours
Inhaling and tasting her exotic flower
Fill her with your sensual fingers
*******, like half moons, rise
as your touch lingers
Exploring her body constellation
Being inside is your destination
Watch her face as she quietly begs
Force her and tell her to spread her legs
You may never know her ecstasy
But she'll steal the stars to be your fantasy

Growing up I never had any pets
My adorable baby brother grew to be the centre of all attentions
My parents were way to busy working
Keeping us afloat
To pay attention to this skinny dreamy girl
I've been to crèches
Where the owners 18 year old son used to hit me
I've sat at the doorsteps of my house
Hours and hours
Hoping the cook would let me

Home lost its appeal
I saw it as a place to live
Not a place to love
Loneliness grew to be my closest companion
My dreams and troubles too complicated
For the simple minds of 8 year olds
12 years later
Things have changed
I've grown into a woman
One I could someday admire
But the 8 year old hasn't left
The one who craves love
Who sits by the doorstep of faith knocking
Begging for the strength to hold on

12 years later we got ourselves a tortoise
Marco the solitary explorer of our house
He was not mine to keep or love
A birthday gift just for my brother
But he grew on us all
Bringing out slowly the love we had long since locked away
In my recent months of hiding
He became my companion
Someone so tiny
Who could never speak
Yet listened so intently when I spoke
Whose curiosity and laziness rivalled my own
We had a understanding
A relationship
I was always careful with him
His tininess terrified me
I've hurt too many in the past
Not this time I vowed

But I ******* it all up
Early morning routines passed in a hurry
My selfishness got the better of me
As I hustled into another work day
And just as I lugged my work for the day into the next room
I felt something hit my foot
And a squeak that turned my blood to ice
There he was
Hidden inside his shell which lay upside down
Time slowed down to seconds
As I rushed to set him straight
Praying he was okay

And even though my mom says he's okay
I can't get rid of the guilt
That painful squeak runs clear in my mind every passing second
I don't deserve him
I could have killed him
I almost did
The problem is always with me

I'm the hurricane of insanity
Of fuckedupness redefined
I could have killed him
I almost did