Aching bones
Sore muscles
Tired eyes
Late nights

Weak heart
Ready to shatter
at any beat

My head hurts
Thoughts jumbled up
Like a car crash
Demons and monsters messing
with my mind
Whispering words of dread
and longing of my death

Everyday is a struggle
Aching bones
Sore muscles
Tired eyes.

When will it end?

My heart maybe be beating
But my blood isn't pumping
My lungs maybe be working
But I'm  suffocating

I'm drowning in my own  worthlessness  and patheticness
Clawing at my skin, ripping it away
It's the only thing I feel apart from
This numbness and pain
I'm spiraling out of control

Going backward instead of forward
My life crumbling around me
As everyone watches me drown
In the dark depths of my mind
I'm screaming out for help
Yet no one seems to here a sound

My eyes maybe open
But they can't see anything but the darkness of the world
My legs maybe be working
But the ache with pain

Just because I'm still alive doesn't mean I'm living

My heart is carving in
My mind is breaking
My very soul is being ripped apart.

I'm spinning in an endless spiral
Of pain and misery
But then you appeared
And held me through the night
Whispered me stories
And sung me lullaby
You fought away the monsters who stole my dreams
Who stole my childhood
Who stole my life

But you vanished into the night
Without a trace
A sound
A word
You left me to fall back into destruction
Into the dark
Into the cold welcoming arms
Of death

Broken
Cracked and Shattered
Scarred
Ripped and Burnt

Heavy heart
Messy mind
Why are all this things mine?
Hollow chest
Numb to everything
Did it all switch off? Or just run away?

Loneliness holds me in its welcoming arms
Saying hello my dear friend are you back again?
And with a knowing glint in his eyes
Loneliness knows I'm alone inside

He holds me in his arms and chuckles as I cry
Shaking his end
Saying he told me so
Told me they all would  go
One way or another
I'd come back
Into the welcoming arms of my old friend
Lonely